r/askAGP

I’ve been in this sub for over three years now. I went through the whole man stuck in a woman’s body thing to finding this sub. I won’t take all of you through the same song and dance we hear regularly.

I have a question, where’s Phil? What is his current position on this and where does he currently stand?

I have to say I will probably never pursue a woman because I know the implications of that. I’ve looked into the cross dresser wives sub too and I couldn’t ever do that to somebody. Definitely at a crossroads in my life and my AGP is so deeply ingrained I have to make a decision for my future.

If any old timers in this sub would like to comment and give some updates on their lives, that would be appreciated.

Sorry for the grammar issues and stuff, I’m feeling very lazy.

Recently I've been experimenting with men a lot more. While I'm still trying to figure out what kind of men I like, it's becoming increasingly clear that playing the feminine role is a lot more appealing to me. I made a recent post on r/sissy about my most recent gloryhole experience that was incredibly eye opening and exciting. I won't spoil the details. Warning, very explicit. >!TLDR; I sucked 4 guys back to back, and 2 of them fucked me.!<

One big question, how did I go from a strictly heterosexual man, to now almost exclusively seeking men? I used to have sex with women regularly before. But I realized that most of my pleasure from sex came from seeing her having pleasure. Sometimes I would picture myself being in her position. Sometimes when I was alone at night, I would just close my eyes and fantasize about how it would be like to be fucked by a guy as woman.

Every time I had sex with a woman, I wanted to moan like a girl... but I thought "no, men don't do that" so I mostly kept quiet or tried grunting like a man instead. It always felt a little unnatural, like an act. But hearing her moan in my place was enough, I thought.

When I dated women, I wanted them to do public sex with me. I wanted them to dress very sexy. But that was all a projection, because deep down I wish I could do all those things myself. I was essentially living vicariously through the women I dated, projecting all my wishes onto them. Now that I can be and do all those things, I really don't feel the same need to be with women anymore.

When I am near women now, I still feel attraction towards them, and sometimes very much so. But having sex with women doesn't make sense anymore, at least with ciswomen. How is she going to fuck me? A strap-on would not feel the same as a real dick for me. I would rather be her than be with her.

It's fascinating seeing my AGP progress as I transition. I am almost 8 months on HRT and I think the hormones are somewhat playing a role in all of this change, but yeah. I've basically taken the sissy dream to where I want it to be. I still have many more things on my bucket list of slutty things to do, but I've basically become the slut I've always wanted to be. Having sex with men is so affirming and exciting, and sex with women doesn't even come close anymore.

So it's not entirely true that I am only seeking men now. I love fems of all types, and my first anal experience was with a crossdresser that looked very feminine. I would love to be with a pre-op trans woman. I would try with a ciswoman again if I could. But in general, men, or at least people with penises, are my main area of interest.

Am I still attracted to women? Yes. I get aroused when I see them. I want to be them, also. But sex with women doesn't register in my head anymore. I'd rather have sex with men now.

(EDIT: I wanted to emphasize that this is only how I feel at this exact moment. Things are changing very fast in my life, sometimes to a rate that is hard for me to comprehend. But in the end, things could change again tomorrow.)

So i'm a 18M bi guy having severe TOCD about past experiences that might be interpreted as AGP or "sign of being trans". I used to have TOCD this year's January after a trans person on threads tranvestigated me, then felt better and recovered but starting to question my own sexuality about am I really bi or is gay with comphet (read that lesbian masterdoc), note that i felt myself as a boy in that phase. After I recovered from HOCD which takes me 3 months my brain started introducing the TOCD again but this time its more severe day by day with more rumination.

Just in case the worst thing happened to me and I can't fight this anymore, can I transition and still be a guy?

Not sure if i've AGP since i'm not sure did I inserted myself into the characters or just think about them. Also, I did have at some points, gender euphoria as a boy.

Please don't respond if you come here just to say I'm trans in denial.