r/askAGP

Note: This post was translated from Japanese into English using ChatGPT.

Recently, while browsing r/MtF, I happened to come across this post:

> My Mom is trying to say I have Autogynephilia, and I'm scared what if it's true

Post:

https://www.reddit.com/r/MtF/s/chWnGuCUS8

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Reading it reminded me of something I posted on r/askAGP some time ago:

> "But discovering the AGP framework was actually the first thing that made me recognize myself as potentially trans at all...

> So in my case, AGP theory didn't discourage transition—it made transition psychologically understandable to me for the first time."

My post:

https://www.reddit.com/r/askAGP/s/Y3CaWWjDzC

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Comparing these two experiences, there is something I genuinely cannot understand.

In the comments on r/MtF, I saw statements such as:

> "Autogynephilia is fake and most likely made up by a TERF/transphobe that wanted people to detransition."

> "Worse, from what I've seen, it was made up by a creepy clinician to convince trans women that sleeping with men (him) would make them feel better."

> "Considering he IS confirmed to have repeatedly slept with his so-called patients..."

> "He arbitrarily decided people were lying and changed their survey responses."

> "A semi-famous person has said Blanchard convinced them they were AGP and sexually harassed them as a teenager."

There were also many highly upvoted comments such as:

> "Fake disorder made up by a fake scientist."

> "He's always been a quack."

> "He was completely a chaser."

The overall impression was that the following were being treated as established facts:

- AGP was created to discourage transition or promote detransition.
- The AGP concept itself is inherently transphobic.
- Ray Blanchard had sexual relationships with patients.
- He sexually harassed patients.
- He manipulated research data.

Honestly, I was pretty shocked.

Afterward, I used multiple AI systems to fact-check these claims based on primary sources.

As a result, I understand that AGP theory has received extensive academic criticism.

However, regarding the serious allegations against Blanchard himself, I could not find reliable evidence such as court records, disciplinary actions, or official investigations supporting those claims.

If I've overlooked something, I'd genuinely appreciate being corrected.

But as things currently stand, it appears that claims without publicly verifiable evidence are being shared with thousands of people as though they were **confirmed facts**.

This is the part I find hardest to understand.

Criticizing a scientific theory is one thing.

Spreading serious accusations about a person as factual without sufficient evidence is something entirely different.

If evidence actually exists, I would genuinely like to see it.

But if it does not, then isn't that no longer academic criticism, but simply defamation?

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There is another thing I don't understand.

Before learning about AGP, I never considered myself trans.

I wanted a female body, but I never felt that I "was a woman," that I had "always been a girl," or that I was psychologically female. Because of that, I couldn't relate to mainstream trans narratives at all.

Learning about AGP was the first time I thought:

> "So there are MtFs who transition for reasons like mine."

For the first time, my own desire to transition made psychological sense.

To me, AGP was **not** a theory that discouraged transition.

It was a framework that finally explained **why I wanted to transition in the first place.**

That's why I genuinely don't understand why AGP has become widely understood as:

- an ideology opposed to transition,
- a theory created to promote detransition,
- or simply transphobia itself.

Having read the original works by Blanchard and Anne Lawrence, that simply wasn't the impression I came away with.

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So my questions are:

1. Why has the public understanding of AGP diverged so dramatically from what was actually written in the original literature?
2. Why are serious allegations against Ray Blanchard being repeated as established facts despite the apparent lack of publicly verifiable evidence?
3. Why does r/MtF appear to tolerate this level of misinformation and personal defamation?

I'm **not** trying to argue that AGP theory is correct.

What I genuinely want to understand is **why there is such a large gap between the original literature and the way AGP is understood in today's online trans communities.**

Of those with nonconsensual paraphilic interests, 30% reported being distressed by their sexual fantasies or desires, with pedophilic interests being linked to the highest rates of distress.

Among those who were distressed, help-seeking behaviors were rare, with only 7% reporting that they sought help in the past 5 years.

As an AGP guy, I don’t feel any arousal at the thought of a woman’s genitals/vagina. Quite the opposite. It makes me feel disgust and nausea.

Is this common or uncommon in heterosexual males?

not a pro/anti trans/transition post.

Edit -> this is far from saying take out pride marches and create a separate AGP/AAP flag.

It's a long gap from been not shamed to been "proud".

However, I feel like it would benefit many trans people to come to terms with this.

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and it drives me insane

22 sissy here.. I've lost my virginity 2 months back.i have been crossdressing since 13 and I'm aroused by crossdressing and dolling up ever since 19 I started watching sissy porn and indulged in chatting with men..I loved chatting and getting compliments and this continued..after cancelling several plans I finally lost my virginity on April 2026 ..I like it and did it again next month...and yeah I was a straight cd and years ago I never thought I'll be with guys.bu t yeah I got banged like a slut...

And yeah all these I'm not aroused by females..I never used vanilla porn and always imagine as the sissy in the porn....I'm only aroused by the idea of a man fucking me..and being a sissy..ig my masculinity is taken..and I cannot be with girls...atp being a trans is a good idea ig.

Some days Im extremely depressed and suicidal and some days (once or twice a week maybe) im so happy for no reason - almost ecstatic ??

Does it have something to do with my AGP ?
Part of my depression is usually that I'm not a normal human being with this AGP shit going on that killed my confidence and I won't be able to have a normal married life. And I keep thinking if i should even marry at all. I don't think any girl would wanna marry an AGP especially in the muslim country i live in.

I'd like to understand what my problem is and what I should do about it. I call it a problem because I would really like to have a wife and children, and I feel like AGP is hindering me.

Probably since I discovered masturbation, I've been aroused by the idea of wearing women's clothes, accessories (makeup, nails), and having female characteristics (long hair, breasts). What arouses me has changes over the years, but lately I've gotten the most intense feeling when thinking about having breast implants (not huge ones, perhaps just larger than usual) and medium length acrylic nails (simple designs).

I've lurked here for a bit, and unlike some others, my arousal doesn't come from thinking about being a woman, but rather from thinking about having specific characteristics of women, while still being a man. I would NEVER want to transition to female.

Rationally, there is no reason to act upon any of these thoughts. Doing things only for my own sexual arousal feels incredibly degenerate, and given the goals that I've stated above, I can't let myself fall into such a hellhole. To this end, I've stopped masturbating for a while, to hopefully reduce these awful thoughts, and it started off very easy however after a week I get extremely intense urges. Also, getting breast implants to satisfy my fantasy could be very harmful to my body, I've watched videos of breast implants causing horrible complications, and I would feel very weird having them in public because I would want them bigger and I'm quite thin, so they would be visible.

I'm 21, and I feel pressured to have a girlfriend, due to my parents, people around me and my wish to have a family. However, I don't feel a strong, constant attraction towards women. Whenever I'm talking to a girl, I know what I should say or do in theory, but my feelings aren't very strong. Maybe I haven't met "The One" yet... but I find it very hard to text a girl and when I do I'm extremely awkward, so I end up talking to girls quite rarely (beyond regular small talk). I'm not immensely aroused upon thinking of having sex with a girl, or looking at curvy girls on the street, and if I ever end up in bed with a girl, I would probably imagine my fantasies in my head while doing it with her.

I feel extremely disgusted to even type this out, so I am posting this under a burner account. This part of me is something that no one, not even my family or my closest friends know of. Is there any saving, should I seek God, should I be miserable and embrace it, will I live with this curse for the rest of my life?

I am also interested to find out what could've caused this, because I can remember that from a very early age (even before I discovered sexual arousal) I was fascinated with the idea of wearing makeup or girl's clothing, but I haven't told anyone because I was ashamed. I am certain it's something innate, or at least gained from a very early age. Is it because of genetics, my parents or my environment?

Note: This post was translated from Japanese into English using ChatGPT.

For a long time, I never really understood what romantic feelings were.

I've never had much desire to have sex with either men or women, and I never truly understood why people wanted romantic relationships in the first place. Years ago, I genuinely asked a friend, "Is there any reason to get a girlfriend other than social expectations?" At the time, I didn't even realize that this wasn't a normal question.

Later, I learned about Autogynephilia (AGP) and came to believe that I most closely fit the profile of an Analloerotic AGP. My sexual arousal is centered on the idea of myself as female rather than on other people. Even when another person appears in my fantasies, they function more as a prop that completes the scenario of me being female than as someone I am genuinely sexually attracted to.

I discussed this with Grok, and it concluded that my experience is consistent with someone who has very little alloerotic attraction, with most of my sexual drive being directed toward AGP-related self-feminization. That explanation felt remarkably accurate.

However, I wasn't convinced that AGP alone could explain why I also couldn't understand romantic love. So I continued the discussion with Claude.

Together, we examined the characteristics that are commonly said to distinguish romantic love from friendship:

• Seeing someone as uniquely special.
• Wanting to spend time with them.
• Feeling jealousy or possessiveness.
• Caring deeply about their well-being.
• Feeling devastated by the loss of the relationship.

The more I thought about it, the more I realized that all of these can also exist in very close friendships.

The only characteristic that seemed uniquely associated with romance was the desire for romantic or sexual physical intimacy:

• Wanting to kiss them.
• Wanting to hug or cuddle them.
• Wanting to have sex with them.

I hardly experience those feelings at all.

That means the very thing that most clearly separates romance from friendship is largely absent in my own experience.

Because of that, I've come to think that my inability to understand romantic love isn't because I'm overlooking something. Instead, it may simply be that I've never experienced the defining component that distinguishes romance from deep friendship.

Of course, romance is not simply "wanting to have sex." Friendship and romance share an enormous amount in common. Caring deeply about someone, not wanting to lose them, feeling jealous, or wanting to be important in their life can all exist within friendship as well.

For me, the clearest distinction between friendship and romance seems to be whether I desire romantic or sexual physical intimacy with that specific person.

As someone who appears to fit the profile of an Analloerotic AGP, I experience very little attraction toward other people, while most of my sexual energy is directed inward toward the idea of myself as female. If that's true, then it would naturally follow that I lack the primary psychological marker that distinguishes romance from friendship.

After all this analysis, one question still remains.

What does romantic love actually feel like?

It's something that most people seem to experience so naturally that they rarely question it. Yet I've never truly experienced it myself. The more I try to understand it intellectually, the more I wonder whether it may simply be a kind of feeling that doesn't exist within my own psychological makeup.

Perhaps, in this lifetime, I'll never find the answer.

I lost my virginity a few days ago and honestly it just reinforced my existing feelings. I thought maybe I'd finally feel different once I had sex but not really. I still think the male social, dating, and sexual role sucks. I really wish someone would just argue me into liking it. I know that's not possible but it's what I think I need.

I really wanna know that why am I agp.how can thinking of being a girl and wearing hot stuff make me so hard. How does it make me crave dick. Are we just sluts trapped in men's body? I am straight otherwise and want to marry a girl but i dont think agp will ever go away

So, I recently read Phil Ily's blog. And some things make sense, although there are a few unanswered questions for me, which I hope people here can answer, thanks.

I understand that I am AGP or I have AGP.

What I want to know from you beautiful people, is how many of us, how many of you, developed a cross gender identity?

My question is about the thing that many AGP males are comfortable been femboys and many AAP females are comfortable been tomboys, and may not develop the identity, also may not want to transition completely.

Basically, how do people go from "I want to feel feminine/maculine" -> "I feel like a woman/man" -> "Tom/Diane died as my old self, now Angelina/Liam is all that remains".

For most of my experience, I treated my agp it was something purely sexual but knowing its correlated with transgenderism can make me feel distressed.

I've never seen a husband on the internet complain that his wife wants to dress in man clothes and jerk her strap on.

24M I can’t go a day or two without thinking about cross dressing , cranking my shit to TG/TF porn or KIG porn, I don’t feel like I’m trans because my experiences are so different than real trans women. I try so hard to repress my agp tendencies but they just keep coming back. I wish I wasn’t this way. I’ve lied to people irl and told them I’m trans when really I don’t know . I hate myself

and how poorly outcomes can bring being agp, late ,and blokes

external motivated people like hsts , do not waste time..they do it..their motivation is so clear..so explosive..so logical ..so calculated , so purposeful , so utilitarian.

Internal motivation ,instead ,take time....is hidden , it grows with time...is unclear from the outside ...it become explosive only when its usually late....too late for some , it doesnt follow any logical strategy ( ex : im a bloke , i will never pass as a woman ..i will transition regardless) ...literally no any purpose , no any social utility

i wish i had an external motivation

Do you think a person can be agp and hsts at the same time? Or whole bisexuality in agp person is meta attraction

It's been over 2 years since I've been off E and the urge just keeps growing every single day and I'm on my last rope.

My brain has been craving E so much every single day, I don't think I can go on much longer.

I still have my boobs and having them reminds me everyday of how good it felt when they were bigger when I was on E.

Developing female physiology feels so good and addicting, it's like a drug.

If only you could just..

Be a woman...

Become a woman...

My therapist is just so unprepared to deal with this, and there's so many therapists out there who are clueless in dealing with this, I don't know if there's anything left to save me from surrendering to womanhood...

Help me...

Help.

Me.

After today’s session with my therapist, she told me that I am in a stage where I need to see an endocrinologist and check my thyroid levels and my decision to what’s next. Since last few days I stopped and porn, trans cams and other digital triggers and orgasmed only using imagination which was only possible thinking as a woman. I had convinced clearly that I’m 50-50 both to me and therapist. 50% masculine and feminine.

She told me, inorder to have a dream married life with kids and happy family I should change it to higher masculine percentage and possessing only occasional feminine side. She told me if my future wife somehow allows to paint nails or to cross dress then i would get gratification and would demand more and more to which I as an AGP said true.

She told me self management has limits and if I’m not able to reduce the feminine side by managing the thoughts and triggers,then medical intervention is needed. She said I need to decide which 50 should go up and there should not be confusion.

Honestly I’ve seen our mates getting into HRT but I never thought I would go to this

Me neither, and it's a hard sell to attribute it all to upbringing, especially since a lot of us were raised in a mostly gender-neutral way.

I'm not saying that cisgender women can't really enjoy grand strategy games, but their numbers are so low then a lot of times trans women seem to outnumber them despite the population disparity.

So when transgender people speak on trans subreddits acting like they are neurologically the equivalent of their identified sex, or when I read the gender dysphoria bible and see how it implies this, I'm far from convinced.