u/zyrasins

I recently read about an old case where a woman was raped & she got pregnant and when she reported the rape to police, she was acccused of adultery and sentenced her to death by stoning.

she was released later on public pressure but the rule is still there & it's so frustrating that people believe it is such a divine rule. there are islamic scholars who have explained technicalities regarding this rule like the witnesses should be men and they must have seen the actual penetration happening too otherwise rape allegation should not be accepted and the woman would be to blame.

the case i referred was of zafran bibi in pakistan, in case anyone wants to look it up

I used to feel it and thought at least they're humans and deserve happiness, peace but those feelings have somewhat faded away & I'd just feel normal on any news of hate crimes towards muslims.

I just imagine if I come out as trans, how would i be treated and the answer (that i'd be killed or at least abandoned by society) makes me feel nothing but hatred towards all muslims yes all of them because no one stands up against injustices of islam & its followers

pnc used to clear all feelings of feminization but now it doesnt do much. like no regrets whatsoever at all

I'm 37. I have cross-dressed a few times with my wife in bedroom wearing her clothes & lingerie & she even put the make up on.

She thinks it's just a fetish. maybe it is but what she doesn't know is that I met with a guy in a hotel last year & although it was just me doing oral, I loved the experience.

I want to do it again but I don't want to cheat on her again.

Also I hate that I don't look like a girl even if I put make up on and I had to use fake boobs.

I want to get the hrt but the implications of it always hold me back since I also have kids.

Sex life with my wife is not good either. barely keeping her satisfied as i'm not attracted to her much.

Am I gay? because I do like men but only when I am wearing female clothes. I want to look all girly for a man and i love the tthoughts of him kissinng and cuddling etc.

& I have mastrubated many many times thinking all this. The thoughts don't go away even after cumming.

I feel bad for feeling this way because of my wife but I also feel sad for not being able to fully become a girl by getting hrt.

sorry for the errors. english is not my mother tongue

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