u/Fragrant_Young6530

I do not want to become permanently infertile, although temporarily being so would be fine, and I also don't want to go on feminizing hormones because I do not want to transition.

I have heard of many people essentially curing their AGP by going on HRT which seems to be due to them killing off their male libido. This would be great for me except I don't want to transition. I also know just nuking your testosterone levels without introducing female hormones is extremely dangerous to your health so I don't think that is an option.

Does anyone know of any alternative way of going about doing this?

On one hand I worry that making myself more masculine on purpose could make dysphoria worse as I already find myself needing to shave my face and chest lest I go completely nuts.

On the other hand when I was less overweight in the past and looked better not only was I more confident in general but was the least obsessed with the thoughts I have been since hitting puberty.

I rarely go outside because I hate the way I look so much and I don't bother buying cloths that fit/look right either. I got really fat a couple years ago because my job was stressing me out and I had other personal issues going on at the same time, so I over ate habitually.

Is losing weight, getting nice cloths, etc to look good as a man a possible way to combat AGP? I know a lot of my desire to be a woman comes from not liking being ugly and wanting people to like me, which isn't hard for women since there are almost no ugly women meanwhile nearly all men are ugly.

For context after dealing with a professional for a little while I thought I finally had my head screwed on straight. I was planning on obtaining from porn but couldn't and ended up watching porn involving regular women and regular sex while trying to imagine myself as someone other than the woman in question. In general I did fairly well at this and after a few days of that and making some general life improvements I felt like I was beginning to identify properly with my male side and the delusions of being a woman or needing to make myself into one had subsided. For some reason I got very tired of this state of affairs after a while and I purposefully looked at triggering content and forced myself to engage in AGP thoughts until I was back in that headspace and now I'm back in it again and I am trying to figure out why I did this to myself.

I don't want to have to deal with installing coreboot and would rather have everything set up for me and in theory libgfxinit should work fine on libreboot and I have seen people run ivybridge cpu's on the T420 using coreboot and libgfxinit, but the only post I was able to find of someone trying to use a librebooted T420 with an ivybridge CPU claimed they were having graphical issues. I am planning to install an i7-3632QM. Any help would be greatly appreciated.