Need advice Possible Termination
So I’m 100% sure I am pregnant😢 I have a 10 month old who will turn 1 in July who I am still breastfeeding. I am so torn about what to do, I am pro choice obviously but have always told myself I would never personally get an abortion which ended up with me having my son at 20 with no college degree and just not where I wanted to be in life when bringing a life into this world. I am currently in nursing school, which is HARD with a baby plus working part time. I am with his dad and he works and makes decent money, but I know another baby would financially screw us and definitely put my schooling on hold. I just want my son to have a stable life and his future siblings with no money worries and I feel like going through pregnancy than post partum and just this whole thing again is going to fuck up our entire lives. Which is so horrible to say. I’m also terrified of going to hell if I do something like this. I don’t know what to do I need advice. Another thought in my head is like I know what I’d be terminating turns into a real baby, one that will look just like my son and that id feel the same way towards it. ( but than again I don’t know because I never had any thoughts of terminating the pregnancy with him). Ugh this is such a terrible thing. I soft launched to my mom the other day that I’m possibly pregnant and would probably terminate and she basically said no I would not do that, so she’s not on board and I’d probably never tell her about it which sucks because I tell her everything and go to her when I need guidance. Her whole thing is she had a friend who had terminated a pregnancy and struggled immensely after. Another issue is I live in a state that has a complete ban, I’d have to travel and money is so tighttt. I just need advice or even maybe someone who kept a pregnancy with a similar situation as me. I’m open to all opinions, advice ANYTHING. I live in the Dakotas if anyone knows of any resources up here. Thx.