Hey guys just need some advice on how to move forward in this situation.
I went to a concert with my best friend and her boyfriend the other day and they took me there and was supposed to take me home.
Whilst we was waiting for the main person to come on, they had an argument (two middle aged ladies in front caused some tension with them) they wouldn’t speak to each other etc and it was very awkward. I turned around and as my friend if she was okay and she said “just watch the fucking show” angrily at me. I suffer with severe anxiety so at that point I text my mum who is my safe space to let her know about the situation. My friend read my message to my mum over my shoulder and said “I didn’t have a go at you now your mum is gonna think I shouted at you” which in response her boyfriend said to me “really? That’s childish”. I started to get a little upset as i was very overwhelmed in this massive arena and the only two people I knew was being rude to me. Anyways the main act came on and I turned around and my friend was sobbing with her boyfriend consoling her. Within 4 songs I turned around and they was gone. I messaged her saying “where’d you guys go?” To which she responded “meet outside when it’s over” I panicked and once again text my mum and she told me to go outside and look for them as I worried about her as she was upset. As I was walking out the main standing area of the show a panic attack came suddenly and I got out of the arena and sat on the floor by the bar to which a girl saw me and called security to help. Anyways the security (which were ever so lovely) calmed me down and I explained what had happened. A friend of my mum’s who luckily lives in the area called me and said he would come and pick me up and take me back home as I was in no fit state to go back inside.
Anyways the next day she sent me loads of messages saying that they “told me they was going out for some air and they would be back” which the definitely didn’t, she also said I ruined her night as it was a birthday present for her. They also said that my panic attack must’ve been lies and said that my mums “friend” who picked me up was in the wrong as I went to the show with them. They basically said I caused a scene for having a panic attack. When I was worried about loosing her she said “I’m not your girlfriend. We are fine. I’m not going to not talk to you again”
Now it’s been a few days and I tried reaching out to her to ask her how she’s been doing and she just said “been busy” and will not reply anymore. It’s making me feel like I’ve done something wrong which I know deep down I haven’t and my mental health cannot be helped in times like that
I feel like I’ve lost the only friend I really have in this life.
I feel lost and full of what ifs
What should I do in this situation?