Twins are 2.5 and I’ve been miserable most of their life
I feel like a prisoner of my house. I’ve been happy maybe 5% of the time as a mother. The rest of the time I’ve been so exhausted and stressed. Newborn through infancy was hell. They were horrible sleepers and colicky. After that it was still hard. They cry and scream all the time. Never content no matter what we do for them. Always mad about something every few minutes. But the last month I’m feeling like it’s hell again. They never leave me alone. I feel rushed doing anything to the point that I’m shaking because my body is just preparing for the next scream. One of them won’t stop getting into everything and I’ve baby proofed to the max. I can’t even turn my back now or use the bathroom because they find a way to get into something. I feel like I’m a great mom and would love motherhood if it wasn’t this bad. but feel as though my kids are way more intense than other kids I’ve met. People can’t relate to the amount of chaos I’m dealing with daily. We never did family photos. We have taken one family vacation and it was a ton of work and not much time for any enjoyment. I just feel like every day is Groundhog Day and we can’t even do the things we used to anymore because they run away, fight the stroller, fight the car seats, take off clothing no matter what kind I try. Want to go home as soon as we get places. Want to leave the house when we’re home. They’re never satisfied and I feel stuck.