my(21F) boyfriend(22M) has a porn addiction and I'm afraid it might become more than that
So.. in the beggining of our relationship my phone died so I started scrolling through his tiktok, and I went to see what he had in saved and all I could see were almost naked alt girls, even if he always brags that he and his tiktok are so innocent.
I was slightly upset but I didn't make a big deal out of it, because the last one he saved was exactly in the day that we met, and since then he didn't add to his collection stuff like that anymore.
Yesterday, I was looking through his email (because I've signed up in a contest w his email) and a telegram notification stood out to me, so I asked him
about it and he told me it was a notification because he tried to delete telegram. I was skeptical and asked him why yesterday exactly, like what happened that he woke up and just wanted to delete telegram, and after filtering some lies I found out he tried to log in to telegram because he was in certain porn groups. After a discussion he confessed that he used to have a severe porn addiction but now he is trying to get rid of it.
I confronted him about it and told him that I don't mind the porn watching (even though I think being in telegram groups for porn is a little extreme), I don t feel insecure about the instagram models, the thing I am afraid about is that how will man who can't control his porn addiction control his lust in real life?
He told me that he is really trying to quit and that I am his motivator, but all I could hear is lies, because how can I believe a man who promises me that he only has eyes for me and in the meanwhile he s going out of his way to watch models and whatever else he is watching.
I don t even know how to deal with it. Im not absurd, I would understand occasionally watching porn, but going out of your way for it feels kinda extreme to me and I am afraid that it might go further in real life. I ve never dealt with anybody with a porn addiction, I always just avoided people with that, and now I am in a situation where my boyfriend has one. I don t know what to do and how to handle it. And again, it s not necessarly the porn that upsets me (even tho it does a little), it is the fear that it might turn physical AND the lies about being so innocent and stuff.