i feel like people who don’t get depressed don’t understand that those of us that do are EXCELLENT actors. like i’m not gonna mope around 24/7 just to prove to you that my mood is perpetually low. and that’s also not how it works ?? i just hate people conflating depression with regular sadness
i’m in an episode rn and i KNOW what i need to do to feel better but i absolutely cannot do anything but rot. it’s a beautiful day today and i could easily take a walk but i absolutely cant move. i want to WANT to feel better, but it’s more comfortable to feel like shit. it’s a really weird feeling that i always come back to. my partner is being supportive but it’s almost annoying bc he has no idea what this is like and has never been depressed a day in his life. just needed to vent