u/DouglasRessler

Age: 26
Race: White
Gender: Male
Height/Weight: 6’4” 198 lbs
Diagnoses: Bipolar II, ASPD, ADHD, Panic Disorder, General Anxiety and Depression, therapist believes I’m OCD and I agree but haven’t been diagnosed by psych
Duration of complaint: not really sure what this refers to (how long I’ve been diagnosed? Then it’s been a few years) but if it has to do with the length of my post I’m sorry.
If this is the wrong place to post this I’m sorry and I would appreciate being directed to the right place.

I am on my second psychiatrist and he’s good and was highly recommended. The only issue is the office isn’t great about communicating but that’s not really the point of this post. I have severe panic attacks 3-4 times a week. They’re anywhere from 15 mins to 45 mins long. I have been in therapy for 3 years and I love it but it hasn’t help my panic attacks. I currently take lithium, caplyta, lamotrigine, and vyvanse daily, and I have hydroxizine pam for the onset of a panic attack.

My general mood improved when I started the caplyta/lithium combo so I believe that worked. Lamictal was added later and I didn’t feel any different I’ve also been on it before and didn’t feel a difference. Other onset medications I have tried are buspar, regular hydroxizine, klonopin, etc. I might be missing a few. Nothing helps. The H-Pam is the only thing that has some sort of difference but it just puts me to sleep in 30 mins; by then I’ve been in mental hell for 30 mins so all I get is an unnecessary nap.

Vyvanse has probably been the most beneficial to my panic attacks. I used to get them at work so I’d have to back myself into the bathroom stall til I felt like I could function at my desk without causing a scene. Basically when my mind wanders panic attacks happen and the vyvanse has kept me so focused at work that I haven’t had one there since I started taking it. But my panic attacks when I’m home are the absolute worst. They’re mostly at night but I have been thrown into one the minute I wake up. Im scheduled to see my psych but the earliest he had is three weeks from now and on top of that he told me to stop taking vyvanse until the attacks are under control. It’s been the only medication I can say 100% helped me and I don’t want to stop taking it.

With my two psychiatrists I’ve communicated that I need something to take when I can feel a panic attack coming on. I keep getting medications that don’t work and I can’t seem to get them to prescribe me one that does. My doctor even suggested exposure therapy; he wants me to talk/think myself into a panic attack so I can learn how to talk myself out of it. I’ve been having these for years before I even knew what they were. I try talking myself out of it every time I’ve tried it all I’m not thrilled about putting myself into a position I know I can’t get out of. I understand benzos are a serious drug class but I’m not a recreational drug user and I have bo criminal record. I definitely got the vibe that my last psych didn’t want to prescribe me benzos and am wondering if this one thinks something similar. idk what to do I just want these panic attacks under control. Bottom line I can’t live with these anymore. Sorry if this was too long I’m just looking for advice.

EDIT: added OCD

Hey y’all I was retuning from the gym and noticed this oily substance pooling on the rim of my R3 and it appears to drip down off onto the tire. This is literally the only spot on the bike with the oily substance on it. I don’t have any friends that ride and don’t want to involve Yamaha if I don’t have to so I thought I could get opinions from this community; I would really appreciate it.

I personally think it’s some sort of lubricant from the factory. It’s a 2026 R3 with just under 600 miles on it, and I was JUST about to do the recommended first oil change. The fork tube, fork seal, brake rotor, caliper, etc. are all completely normal and this is the only oil on the whole bike that’s out of place. I think it’s normal tire mounting lubricant from the factory but I’m trying to be safe and cover all my bases. I’m in Alabama and it’s been very hot lately if that helps. Thank y’all.

UPDATE: It has come to my attention that people think this could seriously be dog piss. I’m beginning to question everything. I do live in an apartment complex with a lot of dogs. I’d like to think an owner wouldn’t allow their dog to lift leg on my bike, but I’ve underestimated people before.

It would explain why I did see a few drops on my motorcycle cover but nowhere else on the bike itself; just remembered that. If it turns out to be dog piss we can all point and laugh at me for this post. I mean I touched it and rubbed it between my fingers and subsequently sniffed my fingers multiple times. I guess I can provide an update later if people actually care.

UPDATE pt. 2: If anyone still cares yes it was piss. I went downstairs (apartment complex btw) to further investigate and took another paper towel to soak some up and put a lighter to it and of course it didn’t catch. Seconds later the sweetest old lady walked up to me and explained that her dog had gotten out and when she found it, it was leg up mid stream on my front wheel. She felt awful and I explained to her that everything was okay and that I was glad to hear that my bike did not have an oil leakage I couldn’t ID.

Thank yall so much for all your help it means a lot. I learned to look out for irregularities and pay more attention to my bike in general. I also made a new friend in the elderly lady who lives in my building. I’m still beefing w her dog but we’ll work it out.

Panic Attacks and Medication

Oily Substance

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