u/DowntheRabbitHole189

I'm really scared. I've never experienced all of this at once before; it just came out of nowhere. My calf muscles became rock hard and I was in agony. I was able to get the pain to die down a bit by massaging my leg, but that made me feel nauseous for some reason.

I took my morning dose of my benzodiazepine (I'm on a very slow taper) and it made the cramping subside significantly. But about an hour later I woke up with pain in my prostate. I had to go to the toilet and in the bathroom I suddenly started to feel nauseous, get a cold sweat and feel weak, feeling as if I was about to vomit but also faint.

Have you guys experienced this before? I'm really scared. I've seen so many different people with a myriad of withdrawal symptoms from this hell of a medication, so I'm hoping someone here has experienced it. I think the nausea, etc has to do with my gut, as there are many benzodiazepine receptors there and benzodiazepine withdrawal can wreak havoc on your gut, causing all sorts of issues.

I've taken some dextrose monohydrate powder in water to get my blood sugar up. I don't have diabetes. I had tests done recently. This is benzodiazepine related. I am feeling a bit better now as it seems to be kicking in.

Thanks

I've been withdrawing for over 2.5 years now, and I can't believe I still haven't finished. I want to go faster, but my body and brain can't handle it. I can't remember what it's like to feel "normal", nor do I remember much of what my life "felt" like before my taper.

I can mentally remember things I've done, of course, but I can't remember what it feels like to have had the energy to get up and do things every day without feeling like my heart is going to explode or having to sit down.

I've had an EKG, BP taken, blood taken, etc, and all is good. But I have had thyroid issues for years, and it's clear action should be taken, but it doesn't look like my doctor is going to act on them until I actually get sick (my country doesn't really practice "preventative medicine"; they'd rather wait until your thyroid has been destroyed before acting 🤷🤦). This makes it difficult for me to distinguish between benzodiazepine withdrawal symptoms and other conditions. Nonetheless, benzodiazepine withdrawal is the worst thing you can experience, not just because of the myriad of symptoms, but because of how long it lasts.

My life is just passing me by. I want to get married, but I don't have the ability to hold down a full-time job that will allow me to support a family. I feel like a hermit, even though people tell me how handsome I am and can't understand why I'm not married, or at least dating.

I am sure many of you have had similar experiences, as well as many others. I imagine many of you *are* married and benzodiazepine withdrawals have wreaked havoc on your marriage and family. My heart goes out to you all.

Comment whatever you want. I just wanted to share a few thoughts, get stuff off my mind, and do it in what should be a "safe" space.