u/Downtown-Effect557

Hey guys, so I’m a 20F now for context I am a masculine woman and I had a feminine female friend 19F, we been friends since we was 13/14 years old. We went to separate schools and still find a way to do everything together. Now we did used to get into about our relationships because we had certain partners who didn’t like the other. She would always cut me off for her partners but I wouldn’t do the same I told her I would never choose between the two. I influenced her to come to my college and everything. We was excited but 2 weeks before I got into a bad car accident. I spent 3 weeks in the hospital she came and seen me and even helped my nurses before going off to school. Soon as she got to school she met this girl and I noticed our phone calls would become less and less and I was at home recovering so I was really bummed out because I was missing out going to school and hanging out we go to a hbcu ifykyk . I went to visit right before homecoming and we sorta got into it over her going to go see a certain ex( who I had beef with but I let it slide cuz she was happy) and when she told me that I asked what about the current girl she was talking to and she had gotten mad at me for asking,and she was also mad that I was talking to a ex she didn’t like while broken up at the time with my gf, I could tell by how she shut down on me we probably wasn’t going to be talking for maybe 2 weeks.I knew she would probably go ghost so I would text her encouraging stuff and still checking in even if I didn’t get a response because I knew she would go ghost but still see the text and I was hoping for a fr response one day because I don’t hold grudges. Right before winter break I got my housing assignment and told her immediately. That’s when she told me she didn’t want to be friends anymore. I didn’t take it well because she was in my car literally 20 minutes before my accident so I felt a certain type of way and randomly ending the friendship we had since we was kids. Everyone told me to just let her be and even my gf, who my former friend had called and told her it was because her girlfriend didn’t feel comfortable and felt I was too clingy. And I was doing too much. I really just wanted the reassurance of why and what exactly did I do to her for her to end the friendship. But after us going back forth in an argument instead we never spoke again. Until recently I seen her at her job down the street from the school. And she spoke to me at first I took it as her being nice cuz she was at work but the second time when I forgot something and came back to check out she spoke. And we laughed a little over the machine thinking I was stealing. That night I texted her and told her I wasn’t mad at her and I had reupped if she wanted to smoke. Then at a big party she hugged my gf and spoke to another friend of mine but when she would see me she would leave immediately or not acknowledge me. I keep thinking if I should just pop up and ask to have a private conversation. Idk what to do I don’t hold grudges or have any hate in my heart except for her being weird and moving weird. Idk this is a friendship break up I haven’t taken lightly because she was really my best friend.