21 male, uk. Unfortunately life happens and now I have big shoes to fill and basically provide for a house 3 kids and a wife as well as my own expenses. Haven’t been to university. Only completed sixth form/college.
I have experience in the security industry 3+ years working mainly doors but I’ve done all sorts of security work. Also parcel delivery for Amazon good money shit conditions. Both self employed.
I don’t know what to do career wise long term. I’ve always wanted to join the police it’s the only thing I wanted to do in life. I mean I have the experience and motivation for it, done the research of what it’s actually like. So applied for the degree apprenticeship went through the long 7 month process counting down the days till I start completed everything received my course start date went and did the uniform fitting was so excited only to get turned down last minute because of vetting. This completely destroyed me mentally. I’m still not giving up because the vetting issue I am in the right and it’s nothing major I’ve not been convicted or anything like that. But now I’m having second thoughts if it’s really worth it because the state of the UK policing right now is disgusting from what I’ve heard and seen. And the officers can get fired over the littlest thing doesn’t help either makes me think what if I’m 3 years in and boom I get sacked for something small and probably not even work related then what.
There’s been times where I’ve had no actual work for weeks maybe one or two shifts here and there somewhere basically just being a bum because no where is hiring and i fucking hate this it’s driving me insane. I’ve applied to 10+ warehouses at one point and only 2 of them actually got back I think this is rock bottom.
It doesn’t help when family call you a failure and argue all the time or give you that look or when you know they use you as a bad example to their kids like I’m not trying my best.
Currently I’ve started an NHS security role 4 on 4 off for some stable income but I’ve not actually been placed on a 4 on 4 off team yet just covering only, so a few shifts a week until something permanent gets resolved.
I’ve not been uni because I feel as it would be a financial liability. I don’t even know what to study. But then again I feel as though I should go and not miss the opportunity.
I’ve always wanted to learn one trade in life but I wouldn’t know where to start. Probably mechanic that’s interesting and fun to me. But I can’t be learning right now I need to be earning and I can’t earn well without learning well and I can’t learn well when I have bills to pay my god life sucks man.
I’ve only got interest in policing right now but the process is so fucking long the next degree apprenticeship for my force opens end of the year I can’t wait that long but right now the normal non degree entry route is open I really want the degree apprenticeship as I promised someone I’d get a degree in something before they go but I might just have to break that promise and do this non degree entry.
Paramedic industry from what I’ve seen working at the hospital it doesn’t look too bad especially the patient transport paramedics but I’ve heard those jobs are hard to get as everyone is applying for them as well. And I believe the pay is not that good.
Anyone got advice?
I knew I hit rock bottom when I typed all this out then clicked post.