Places with good quality clothing. I like some of the things on zara. I used to like top man. ASOS is overwhelming. Flannels is expensive.
I just seen a meme/video of a flashback to school discos. It said something along the lines of ‘when we used to dance like this at school discos’… I clicked on, wait, unless I had a close friend with me, i used to stand at the side of the hall scared of my dancing being judged, self conscious. And scared to mingle with the other kids.
I remember sitting in assembly, sweating because people were right behind me looking at the back of me, what if i had something on me that they’re laughing at.
Girls giggling has always gave me anxiety like they’re laughing at me.
I only really realised I have anxiety in tbe past coupes of years; I used to mock anxiety as a teenager like ‘how can someone be anxious!!’ All along I was super anxious and self conscious, but I thought it was just me and normal I guess.
When I really think about it, I’ve been super self aware since very young.
My question; anyone else only realise once they’re an adult, that they’ve been anxious and super self aware since a kid? And what do you think caused this?
Basically zero senses and fully paralysed.
You’d surely have zero sense of self? Not based in reality anyway.
Would you even have any memories? There’s nothing to remember if you never witness anything.
Maybe you would live in pure imagination, like living in VR built from your mind?
Some people would say that’s what reality is; a collective projection from our minds.
Maybe there have been people who have been born like this, who have gained senses at some point in life and have told their story. I’d be interested to hear that.
I ask this because I feel like I come across stuck up when I’m actually anxious and anyone who knows me knows im far from it. I can be avoidant, which leads to me being in the third group meet-up and ive only spoke to 3 people. It feels like everyone else is progressing wotj building friendships whilst I feel like I’m tagging along due to my own fear of speaking to new people. My ability to think on the spot becomes clouded and my replies are often short and I forget to follow up during conversation or ask about them. Not because I’m stuck up but because I just can’t think; I often do a stupid goofy laugh to something which could have warranted a full worded reply because of this.
I rambled on, but anyway; I think my anxiety and lack of conversation skills around new people can make me look uninterested and possibly stuck up. But I actually want to make friends. (Alcohol used to be my answer to this ((confidence juice)))
Does anyone else feel like they come across to other people in a negative way when they don’t mean to?
Im trying to find long videos of hours of classic British TV, with the adverts; so I can feel like im rewinding back in time, getting the full experience. 1990-2010.
When I search on YouTube i end up with just adverts or clips of old tv