u/Downtown_Control_887

Their food (and I) went flying off of my e-bike. Car hit my front tire (turning onto crosswalk, I had right of way) and I swerved, fell off my bike and heard my ankle crack. Bike was relatively undamaged. Car sped off, I picked myself up, fixed my handlebars, grabbed the food out of the street, and hobbled onto the sidewalk. Guy behind me on sidewalk saw whole thing happen, didn’t even move to help as I limped to grab everything. Just stared at me.

Outside of food bags was visibly undamaged, but I was sure I jumbled everything up. Thankfully no drinks. I messaged my two customers, (only got a screenshot of one), took a deep breath, and finished my orders.

Now at home hoping that the nasty pain throughout my entire foot goes away.

And of course it was during peak pay too, my first order of the day smh. Also right before finals bro.

Not worth it for the ten bucks.

Edit: I’m a she. I’ve talked to the police. I’ve talked to DD. I’ve been to the hospital. Thank you to everyone calling me dumb, I realize I don’t take the best course of action here, but I was in pain and panicking. Hindsight 20/20. Sorry for being an idiot?

Sorry if this is a bit rambly, anxiety destroys brevity for me, and I just need some advice.

Context: My doctor and I are almost 100% sure I have had an undiagnosed sleep disorder my entire life, either narcolepsy or idiopathic hypersomnia. For a diagnosis, I need to have a sleep study. Cool, I'm excited to finally get this figured out. Bad news is, I have to be off my Zoloft for the sleep study.

I've been on my zoloft for a year, 100mg. I take it for generalized anxiety and depression. It makes life livable, I love it a lot. Getting off of it sucks hard. I have been titrating off slowly, so that's not the issue, and I am currently at 25mg.

Unfortunately the timing of the sleep study is not great. I will have to be either almost off my meds or completely off my meds through finals season. I am taking 19 brutal credits (chem majors and math minors sound off) that would have been stressful without getting off my meds. It is also hitting during a predictably hard financial time for me. As we get into the summer, I lose my school stipend, so money gets REALLY tight. Like...I'm eating rice for my two meals of the day. There's also a lot of family stressors. No I cannot reschedule for a better time. This is my slot, take it or leave it.

ALL OF THIS TO SAY - (sorry for the rambling), I am having a REALLY hard time managing my anxiety at the moment, and need some tips. My anxiety is worse than it has ever been EVER. Some days it feels like I am stuck in an anxiety attack for over 24 hours.

Things I need help with (please if anyone has even little unorthodox advice, I'm tired of googling and just seeing "take deep breaths"):

Cognitive impairment
- Sometimes it feels like it takes literally over 30 seconds to process that I need to move out of the way of something, or do something simple like open a door. I am paralyzed by it. Studying is awful, nothing feels like it sticks. I feel stupid during the worst parts. Is there anything I can do to "wake my brain up"
Nightmares
- The zoloft didn't get rid of the nightmares I have every. single. night, but it did make them less distressing and vivid. Is there anything I can do to help this?? I'm tired of waking up in tears and distressed. Not a great way to start the day.
Shaking.
- I am shaking....all of the time. Having a normal stress free conversation...trembling before the other person. Turning in something...shaking the paper at my professor like its a snowglobe lol.
TEST ANXIETY
- I would like to preface this by saying before getting off my meds, never in my life have I experience test anxiety. It is the one part of my life that I felt fully confident in all the time. Now...I am throwing up constantly before every test or quiz. Kind of inconvenient before finals. During the exam, feel like im going to pass out. Quite literally shaking in my seat...is there anything I can do about this?
Crowd anxiety
- This was a big part of my anxiety before taking zoloft, and haven't dealt with it since like middle school honestly. If I'm in a crowd, I'm freaking out. The 5 things you can see...etc. stuff works a bit but...idk. I feel like theres nothing I can do.

Any advice, even if its harsh, unorthodox, or "actually breathing does help you should do that." Even if I get no advice out of this and I'm just speaking to the ether, at least I...got it off my chest? Idk thanks for reading if you made it this far.

TLDR; Need advice for cognitive impairment, nightmares, constant shaking, test and crowd anxiety from GAD worsened after getting off of zoloft for sleep study.

Any of yall fall asleep during sex?