u/Dr-ZAIN

How do I stop being afraid of getting hit , I trained for one year and then stopped for two years , now I'm back and I still have this f'ing problem , I flench , I close my eyes once I get hit , I start to panic and get lost in what to do , please if you have some advice just tell me Also it's worth noting , when I came back to this sport I came back in like training alone and sparring with my friends who have like five years of experience in this sport , and you may ask why not in a gym simply because I live in a shit hole of a country where the only gym we had closed which made me stop for two years