Really struggling today
That’s all. Just needed to say this to someone. A lot of triggering content is popping up on Reddit and I’ve had to say no to myself a lot today. Only to get the urge again a few minutes later.
My therapist gave me good advice recently. When you get the urge, just wait 10 minutes. If you still have the urge, then wait another 10 minutes. Keep doing this until the urge goes away or you give in. Well I really don’t wanna give in. But the urge also isn’t going away after waiting.
I’ve been trying to quit for almost a year now. I’ve only ever made it 11 days in a row. Which feels like such embarrassing lack of progress. I haven’t been keeping track lately, but I feel like I’m near my 11 day mark again.
I just want this to start getting easier. But the longer I go without it just keeps getting more and more difficult. It’s so exhausting.