The worst part is that you didn't tell them the truth, you've been telling them your biased side of things R, but they will never know all the things you did to me, the fact that you lied about our breakup just to go there, the fact that you've painted a horrible picture of me then gone and done what you were complaining about them doing to each other, but with me. You don't even want me to meet them because you know it could corrupt some of the lies you've told, the fact of the matter is you've got a lot of owning up and maturing to do. I'm here having casual drinks ever now and then, yeah sometimes I get upset but at least I'm not filtering all my pain away or my emotions away with substances, you were getting so good but now it seems like you'll end up gone within months if you keep going this way surrounding yourself with people who use you and then continue to call them "friends", I'm not the only one who knows what we had was true. Everyone saw it, you're just avoidant of that. The sad part is when you eventually want to come back I won't be around anymore, not the way you're treating me, wanting to hide that we are talking from everyone. Fact of the matter is if they were truly your friends they would respect your decision of wanting to keep talking to me, not judge you or cause trouble for it. But then again you're just as bad letting it all get in your head
Love always your peanut, D xx