I feel sad today
I don’t have a diagnosed mental health condition, nor am I on any medication, so I apologize if this doesn’t belong in this subreddit.
I feel sad. I feel hopeless about life; I’m from a South American country, so everything that’s easier to come by in other countries—like a home, a decent job, or even a car—is much harder to get where I am. I don’t have a good job or a college degree. I feel lonely, and I don’t have anyone to talk to. I have friends and all that, but I don’t feel like I can really open up to them, or to my family either.
I don’t feel like anything I do makes sense. It’s as if all I can hope for is simply to distract myself from how miserable I am.
I’m 26 and I feel like my life is already running out. When I was younger, I at least had the hope that things might change over time, but at this point in my life, it doesn’t seem like it will. I feel like shit.
I don’t feel like eating or even lying down in bed; I just wander around my house like a lost soul, listening to the same four songs on repeat over and over.
Lately, I’ve been talking to this girl; it seemed like she was kind of interested in me, but for the past couple of days, she hasn’t talked to me or anything. I don’t know, maybe I’m overreacting, but this isn’t the first time I’ve been ghosted.
I feel as if I haven't really lived my life, and now I don't have any time left to enjoy it—if I ever even had the chance to do so.