tl;dr
Me (21) and my gf (20) have been dating for the past 4 years now and we've been getting together very well. We're very close both emotionally and physically.
I've had a relationship earlier but it was a school time romance with the most romantic thing in it being staring at each other for long hours in the class sitting 2 miles apart.
She's had a relationship earlier of 2+ yrs. It was toxic as much as I've known.
Our relationship started in a hurry, and we just came close so fast we had almost no time to know eachother. But still got together smoothly
We share a lot in common and it's easier to say we do compliment eachother despite not having a very long pre-relationship phase.
I knew about the relationship earlier but it was only after some time that she told me about her going to her ex's place some time and they tried to go all the way but couldn't do anything. We stopped that conversation there and didn't talk about it much.
Later I ended up asking about it again and this time she told me a few details differently than the last time and I thought it was just some bad memory.
But eventually it came back to linger me and I couldn't stop thinking about it and ended up asking again and she'd keep ensuring me that they just tried and it didn't happen.
I honestly love her very much and have no doubt she does so equally if not more but it's a very weird feeling.
It's not that I can't accept the past but the fact that if she's hiding something. And that feeling makes me think like why shouldn't I know if there is something else in the story.
Maybe there's nothing more than what she's told me but maybe there is and it's a weird feeling.
Wonder if I should keep asking about it or just leave it as it is