u/DragIndividual8219

my ex (20M) and I (20F) broke up in march after 1+ year of dating. mind you, HE chased me for a whole year before I even said yes. I was never even that into dating, he convinced me.
then one random day it’s “I don’t feel anything for you anymore / I’m losing myself with you” and he just dips.
cool.
but now this man is on insta posting those cringe “me and my credentials” / “looking for a girl who…” reels like he’s publicly auditioning for a new girlfriend. and the worst part? those reels are actually doing well. he’s going on dates, acting single single, living his best life.
AND on top of that, throwing indirect shady comments about me like he’s the victim.
like sir?? YOU left.
meanwhile I deactivated my insta and disappeared. I literally cried for a month straight, stopped eating properly, my health got so bad I ended up getting hospitalised.
and yeah, I know I shouldn’t have, but I reached out to him from another phone, even sent a picture from the hospital.
his reply?
“honestly I do not care bro stop trying to reach out to me warna yaha bhi block kar dunga.”
he’s blocked me everywhere.
everyone used to say he loved me more. he was the “head over heels” guy. wanted me so bad. and then suddenly you switch up and leave me hanging like this?
and the irony is, he did a lot of questionable things in the relationship. when he got angry, he got aggressive, sometimes even borderline abusive, both verbally and physically. I never told anyone because why would I ruin my own boyfriend’s image? and also, it’s embarrassing to admit that someone who “loved you so much” treated you like that in private.
so now he gets to walk around like the heartbroken nice guy, while I’m the one who disappeared.
and now I feel this weird pressure to go out, date, post, prove that I also have options just so I don’t look like the one who got left behind.
but honestly? I don’t even want to. it feels fake and exhausting.
so what do you even do in this situation?
how do you not look miserable when you’re not playing the same game, and they’re out there controlling the narrative?
Honesty I feel so stupid after this, I used to think that I was a smart girl no one can play me like this cuz o always had my guards up, never wanted to get involved in dating n stuff, he came, he saw me , he wanted me, he convinced me continually for an entire year, then when I finally let my guards down, when I finally first time in my life decide to trust someone Thai is how they treat me, this is how I get fuckin played THAT TOO SO PUBLICALLY!!!!!