Knowing the difference between being asexual and having PSSD?
hello!
I (f26) am kinda of new to reddit and posting on mobile so please excuse or politely correct any errors I may make.
I have been questioning this for quite some time and it doesn't seem like my current therapist has any answers for me. So I'm coming to the internet for guidance!
I was diagnosed with mood disorders pretty young, at the ripe age of 13. This led to me being prescribed SSRI's very soon after and have been on them ever since.
As a teen and adult, i don't think I've ever viewed sex in the "normal" way that most people do. I definitely have to have a strong bond/connection with the person to even want to partake in sex. But I also don't really find myself getting "aroused" anymore.. I'm pretty sure I did sometimes in my early 20s but it's been a few years at least.
Sex has always kind of been along the lines of a "chore" for me. It's never really been something that I've desired very deeply. I do it only to share a connection with someone.
In more recent times, I've become entirely abstinent. Which makes things super complicated for me and my long term boyfriend.. I just have no desire for sex. It hurts him a lot and I hate that. But I also don't want to force myself into doing anything I don't feel comfortable with...
So I'd like to get to the root of it all before making any huge life changing decisions.
I'm very unsure if all of this is due to Post-SSRI Sexual Dysfunction or i am just asexual by nature.
If anyone has thoughts or ideas that could help, I would greatly appreciate it!