Guys I’m cooked
I’ve never come home from a date and cried. I’ve just recently started to accept that I think wlw is who I am. And I went on this date with this amazing woman, who I really want things to go well with thus far. And with all the therapy I’ve done, and the personal work I’ve done, I don’t think it’s enough. I am really struggling! And for what! I have an amazing group of people who support me, but alas I am just struggling. Maybe some of you have felt the same way?
I will preface, there was an embarrassing moment during said date with my regular bartender because I told my bartender that I think I’m just gay and that’s a different future than what I imagined when I was younger. And then when my date came back she came around and said “don’t worry I’ll serve drinks at your wedding” and now I cannot help but sob. Because what is my life right now. I know I’m being so melodramatic. Don’t roast me too bad.