u/Dramatic-Hearing1487

I genuinely don't know what to do anymore. I feel as if I'm slowly losing myself to someone i dont know. My memory is failing me, I cant distinguish my emotions, I know i'm changing but is that bad? I'm not the person I was before. I have multiple disorders and illnesses, but it all just feels like my fault. I dont want to be this way but Im so tired of having to hide or fake my emotions. Im not medicated but because of some heart issues I might not be able to get any. Im a literal walking emotional time bomb who contradicts herself. Im only 22 and im so fucked