I accidentally took 2 of my 30 mg xr adderall this morning. i took the second cause i forgot i took it already. am i going to die. what do i do. i really am just worried about overdosing. i am not sure what to do or is it okay? will i be alright? idk please some advice on this situation.
I've realised the past year that the idea of having children is so extremely scary for me. I realise that it all stems due to my ADHD and my possibly undiagnosed autism (not trying to self diagnose btw!! It's hard to get diagnosed in the UK as an adult, it's a 2 year+ waiting list💔).
I realise I'm too scared to cope with the workload that comes with having kids, the crying, the taking care of someone 24/7 just scares me a lot and I know I won't be able to handle it.
I'm unmedicated so I wonder if I got medicated would it help? It's hard for me to accept this as I do want kids but my fear of being too incompetent to raise them scares me and I'm worried I'll resent them.
The only way I can imagine I would be able to have them is if I have a lot of help from family and I mean a LOT.
I'm not asking for anyone to talk me into having kids or not having them but I'm asking if anyone has faced a similar realisation and how they've dealt with it. How do I deal with this?
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I hate the corporate world. I do good at my job, most of my team likes me, but I’m not built for corporate:
*constantly monitoring my own words. Apparently it’s not appropriate to say “no problem”, you have to say “you’re welcome”. I’m too direct in my emails asking for things. I’m “too honest” and though I’ve been told I say what everyone is thinking, I shouldn’t be saying it.
*I work too fast because of hyperfocus. So now I have more expectations on me. Going above and beyond just means more work, not more pay or more respect.
*Im too creative. When making powerpoint slides, I put too much color, too many visual graphics. I’m told to keep it simple and basic.
*I have a moral compass and that’s affecting me. I hate the fact that our company just buys land to sell it to data centers. I forget that everyone has secret agendas. I’m expected to hide stuff and keep my mouth shut about things that may cause claims issues.
*Everyone talking around me drains my energy, I work next to the sales team and can’t filter out their calls with clients. I overhear them bragging about ripping off everyday people and it makes me angry.
*I was told my desk was too decorative so I had to take some of my colorful stuff home. I’m surrounded by gray and can’t do anything about it.
I’m just so tired. I used to like my job but the longer I’m here, the more it’s draining all the life out of me.
For the past few years I've noticed that when I get super upset/angry In the moment I end up inflicting harm onto myself, like whether it's banging my head on the wall or even punching myself. I've given myself bruises, and I've gotten myself incredibly lightheaded and almost blacked out from it before, I don't know why I do it, but I've been told it could be an issue caused by my ADHD? I'm getting tired of these sudden attacks and I don't want any more bruises or issues because of it. Has anyone else had the same problem? And how do you manage it?
hi! i’m 22F, diagnosed with ADHD at 19. I haven’t had extensive neuropsych testing done but my doctors decided to treat me for ADHD starting at 19 due to me almost failing out of college + multiple of my family members are diagnosed with adhd and/or autism. I am ALWAYS late. My time blindness is probably my most debilitating ADHD symptom. I am medicated (20mg vyvanse), I set multiple alarms, I wear a watch so I can always check the time, I keep my gcal updated, etc. But im still always late. I don’t know what else to do. I don’t wake up in the mornings (I shut off my alarms in my sleep). Even if i start getting ready multiple hours before I need to be ready, i still get distracted by something that ends up eating up all of the extra buffer time I gave myself. I don’t know what else to do. It’s ruining my relationship with my family because they think I’m just lazy and don’t care
I (21m) got out of a discussion with my parents and I just came to this realisation.
This discussion was trying to discuss my unemployment, me not giving it my all and general seeming lack of care even though I have the time and the current money issues that are facing us, (we’re not *broke* but cost of living has been increasing) and that I needed to ‘pull up my socks’. I agreed with my parents that I’m not doing the best I can and then I started to discuss *why* that is the case and that’s where we got into a small argument.
It’s only recently that I’ve suspected my possible ADHD and I have been somewhat open with them about it, but despite the fact they believe in mental health(my dads mother suffers from Bipolar and he was the only one who noticed it), they can’t seem to wrap their heads around the fact that this is a possible brain issue, not a character flaw. They say I’m trapping myself in a box and that I just need to try harder. I *have!*
I went to a psychologist and even they suspect I have it, (I’m going to a psychiatrist next week) my dad just said I shouldn’t take their words to heart and that they might just want money. Mind you, he has frequently criticised me for my lack of initiative and my inability to focus.
He then revealed that there are multiple people on his side of the family who also struggle to complete tasks despite their minds running with ideas. Geez, I wonder what that could mean!
They are also somewhat against the idea of me getting medicated, cause I’m too young apparently.
I wasn’t telling them my symptoms to make excuses, I was very matter of fact about illustrating my patterns. But they still think it’s just a matter of will powering through. They see how my current behaviours are impacting every aspect of my life and have been for a long time, but they also don’t like when I say that this could be because of an actual disorder and not just me not wanting to put in the effort.
It’s infuriating
Okay so I was diagnosed today with ADHD and started meds today. I was prescribed 20mg and do that for a week then move to 40mg. I heard 20mg doesn't do much and just sorta said stuff it and took 40mg on my first day lol. Honestly today has been amazing but as I sit here at 11:30 at night, was there a reason they want me to take 20mg? Like why not just go to 40mg if 20mg is a super low dose? Have I over done it like am I meant to ween onto it? Im pretty impatient and wanna just get myself sorted lol
Advice? Opinion? Experiences?
Thanks everyone!
Hi guys,
I quit smoking 3 weeks ago and it's going great, especially if I don't take my ADHD meds, I don't really think about cigs anymore.
On the other hand, and what I am struggling with right now, when I take my meds, I get a feeling like I need something. Something is missing, it's not especially the cigarettes, but I have an urge, a craving, but on nothing in particular, it seems. I know that a cigarette would satisfy it. Since stopping I started drinking more coffee and it somewhat satisfies this feeling too, but I don't want to drink as much anymore, or even stop completely. I got decaf but it doesn't "hit" the same.
I tried chewing gums but it doesn't really solve that. I don't know how to replace this need for stuff like cigs or coffee with something good for me.
For context, I do sports already and keep myself busy, but this feeling comes up a lot, especially when my ADHD meds kick in.
I am happy to read some tips on this or experiences. thank you
I was tested for ADHD in middle school and got a diagnosis, but I don't remember the specifics. Then I was tested around two years ago by my therapist at the time and got the diagnosis "severe ADHD combined type" which made sense to me and i felt very validated by that label. my ADHD makes everything in my life super difficult. taxes, work, remembering appointments, scheduling, cooking, cleaning, the works.
recently i just saw a new psychiatrist and she said that the self report kind of test is inaccurate and a lot of people test positive for ADHD from that. she said ADHD is overdiagnosed/misdiagnosed a lot. that made sense to me i guess. so she wants me to take the CNS test (i think that was the name?) she said it was a test to see what my deficits really are and whether or not i actually have ADHD.
i am TERRIFIED now. I thought I had severe ADHD my whole life, and what if now, because of this test, I dont anymore?? even if i was diagnosed with ADHD that wasnt severe id feel odd about it. it just feels like i wouldve been lying to myself and everyone around me. Like i was claiming my "severe ADHD" made things hard, but what if it was just me the whole time? having severe ADHD has been a core piece in my identity for my whole life, and if i dont have that anymore.. i just wouldnt feel like myself :(
has anyone else taken a CNS test? whats it like? do psychiatrists usually administer this? am i worried over nothing? should i just accept whatever new diagnosis i get? what do i do?? 😭
26m—was diagnosed late last year and medicated, and things have really turned around. I am much more productive at work, feel present in my daily life, and my anxiety has gone down tremendously.
I should feel happy and relieved—and I do—but these positive changes have been accompanied by a lot of grief. All through childhood and adolescence, I was criticized by my parents for being lazy and unfocused, and I was a really, really poor student in college because of what I now realize was ADHD mixed with severe depression and anxiety.
I landed on my feet and have a great job and am successful. But I just can’t help but feel sad by all my unfulfilled potential. I wanted to be a doctor and work in emergency medicine when I was in college, but I just wasn’t a good enough student for that to be in the works. Now, after being medicated, I would have such a new appreciation for being a student, but I feel like it’s too late. I feel like I wasted four years of my life during my youth that could have been a period of incredible intellectual exploration and development, instead I just spent it distracted, suicidal, and glued to a screen just trying to survive my own mental health.
I just wanted to get this off my chest.
Hello fam. I’ve been taking dextroamphetamine 10mg twice a day for about a year, and it’s been genuinely life-changing for me. I’m a 41yo single mom and software dev who works from home.
I recently had a bad scare with my blood pressure that landed me in the emergency room, and now I have blood pressure meds and a cardiologist. My primary care doctor (who prescribes my bp meds) has a strong stigma against psychiatric meds and wants me to stop taking adderall. He’s 1000% sure my bp will come down if I stop taking it. The problem is, my entire life will fall apart without adhd medication. I’ve tried a non-stimulant medication in the past (Strattera) and it helped maybe 50% and only for a few months until I started feeling no effect.
My psychiatrist is also saying she can’t continue prescribing Adderall until I get my bp down. It’s come down significantly but is still high.
tl;dr Does anyone with high blood pressure take meds for adhd that don’t interfere with their bp? Is there any drug that’s comparable to adderall?
I really really do not want to feel this way but I keep looping back to doing so. I feel subjugated and purposefully hurt by how I am treated once they learn of either my Autism or my ADHD. They look at me differently, they speak to me differently, like I am a toddler or something lesser. Every single interaction with someone who is aware of my nature feels false or like I am making them uncomfortable.
I do not understand how they think, live, and act much like they do not understand me. I do not trust them to even attempt to understand me. I feel like by nature they will always treat me differently and I am aware this isn’t true but I cannot help it at this point. Every turn I am met with more evidence that I cannot trust them, that it is safer to dislike them and distance myself from them.
I cannot be the only one, right?
So, about 2 weeks ago I went in for surgery. For various obvious reasons I didn't take methylphenidate the day of (I doubt they'd have been able to scrape me off the roof and actually get me in to operate with how nervous I was). The whole time prior to this, I told about five separate medical professionals that I would not be taking meds the day of, or after as I recover.
So I get out of surgery, all goes well. Spent about 6 days recovering, finally felt a little functional and start up my meds again. I didn't sleep for a full 48 hours. It was pure agony. I had been on this dose for the last 6 straight years. I was so surprised, I thought I had gotten a spiked pill or something. So a few days later, when I felt properly better, I tried again. And it's been a complete nightmare. I've had insanely compulsive behavior, essentially no sleep, I've been just freaking out for the last few days, hoping each day I'd get back to how it had been for so long.
Turns out, this is an extremely bad idea for methylphenidate. And nobody ever, ever told me. I used to take weekends off, every now and then I'd miss a day due to bad luck, but I had absolutely no idea that this was possible, and worse, that it's easily preventable if I had known it was a possibility.
My brain is still swimming with meds, is there anything people recommend doing when stuff like this happens? I got a temporary prescription for half doses for the next 4 days, and I'm desperately hoping I can just force my way through this and get back to my life where I'm functioning again.
turning 60 in less than a year. learned I was ADHD after my daughter was diagnosed… did not even occur to me it was a thing all my life struggling. completely convinced I was just easily distracted or didn’t focus.
in the meantime, I’ve had literally dozens of ideas for starting businesses and creating products: I would validate them only long enough until I learned all the stuff (execution) needed for them was too overwhelming and didn’t know where to start - eventually a new shiny object would come along and take its place, rinse, repeat.
that fun and engaging online tool we all know about for feedback and planning and discussion and deep dive is sort of helping and sort of not. I use it extensively to plan so I can feel prepared that I have outlined a really good reason to do ’this’ and avoid ‘that’ even to reason with sticking to an MVP that requires less commitment to the plan and have ‘something’ ugly JUST to hold in your hands as evidence, even if it’s a mere test: yes, I completely understand that ideas are a dime a dozen and (typically) mean nothing without execution. meanwhile, I have yet to get external validation for it by sharing an actual ‘thing’ that is not a drawing etc.
also meanwhile, I have been a graphic designer for 30 years: it scratched the itch till recently when I realized all the crazy/novel/unique/challenging things I’ve wanted to do are still undone... learning I was ADHD spelled it all out for me: surviving, never thriving… mind was tuned (basically still is) as a well-oiled people pleaser, vs doing what I wanted to do. didn’t help one bit that I HATE making mistakes/showing any form of incompetence, making extra effort to ensure details aren’t missed (perfection) before ‘releasing’ it to my peers (overwhelm appeared, slowly being compounded with mental exhaustion). it’s all been a mask. barely anyone knows how I feel or think.
OK: there is more, but that should suffice for now - thoughts?
Hey guys so basically i don't really know what the issue is but throughout my whole life I've always been the outsider to people's groups but never one people check in on. I'm now 30 and I feel like I have friends but I only see them at events and still nobody checks on me I honestly have to be the person to message first all the time like I could go months without saying things to people and I'd just wake up every day with no notifications from anyone..
I've always enjoyed my own time and have moved about a lot I don't really have family members so my life can be so quiet. I do however have my wonderful partner and she honestly just thinks my issue is that I'm just a man. I see her talking to her friends all the time and her friends are also my friends but outside seeing them together I'm still left feeling lonely.
I know I shouldn't get upset by this and I rarely do but it is a big thing for me. Me and my partner both don't want kids but I just don't want to die feeling that I don't make an impact on peoples lives because honestly I'd do anything for the people I love but it really gets tiring having to be the person to message others.
I just want people to get excited about me being present in their lives and feel like I can do things with these people without questioning if they like me all the time....
Does anyone else get a rush of energy / optimism / motivation 30 minutes after taking their extended release Adderall that fades after like 10-20 minutes? It feels like IR. I do think i am still able to focus on things after that feeling fades but i was curious if anyone else experiences this.
So I don't know if I'd categorize this as a problem or simply another one of the many ways ADHD affects my life, but the truth is I struggle so much being straightforward in an anecdote.
It's super hard to just tell what happened straight up, because my brain latches onto any additional information that can add to the humor of the initial anecdote. So if I have to talk about something that happened at a friend's house I need to: introduce the friend, introduce their personality, say why I was at their house, how I got to their house, what their house was like, ad infinitum, and of course those things have very little to do with the anecdote that I'm actually trying to tell.
I'm not super broke up about this because I do feel like my friends accommodate me by letting me go on and on and cutting me off when they have something to say, and when they do that I take as the "shut up for a minute" signal. The nice thing is that after that they let me go on with my anecdote which is always the most important thing ever (hyperbole).
The bad thing is sometimes I have to talk about something super serious or important for the other person to know, such as life events, and I can't help taking at least 30 minutes to get to the point. And obviously time blindness plays there too, because I always underestimate how long I'm going to talk before I get to the point.
I think it's mostly fine because I think I'm funny enough to make it work most days, but when I'm not feeling the humor it's just super annoying.
Everytime I check any playlist branded as "ADHD focus/work/hyperfocus/learn" etc. instead of actually focusing, I am getting sleepy, wandering off without any thoughts, basically I could turn on this music and just go to sleep. I don't understand why could anyone label those as "adhd focusing music".
I am going through life with music. Everything I do, everywhere I go, I need to have headphones (or earbuds). Stroll? Music. Cleaning? Music. Writing, learning, working, everything I do, I do with music. I have to have energetic, fast music, preferably without words, if I have to focus more. Basically any epic video/film/clasical soundtrack will do. I can't function with slow music, like the one they brand with ADHD. I also can't function with silence.
So my question would be, do any of you have the same or perhaps you actually prefer this kind of music? What music works best for you or perhaps it doesn't help focusing at all?
I recently started Guanfacine. And I am really liking it so far. definitely makes the effect of the stimulant much less jittery. Also the come down in the evening doesnt feel like a crash anymore. First few days: i noticed way better emotional regulation but this effect unfortunately has been decreasing. I guess i need to increase the dosage at some point. at my body weight (91kg/200pounds) the manufacturer recommends a dose of 4.55 to 10.92mg. which honestly is way more than i thought. i thought i would need to go up to 2 maybe at the most 3mg.
I would love to hear some of your experiences. what dosages did you end up with? knowing your bodyweight would also be helpful, as apparently it influences the dosage. and how fast did you increase the dosage?
Buddies, at work I was filing docs in a binder (real paper even) during a meeting and one of the participants was like “um, excuse me can you pay attention?” So, I kindly explained that my version of ADHD means that often a low attention distraction helps me focus and that I was paying attention. The participant expressed their disbelief and said it didn’t look like I was paying attention. I told them I didn’t care and kept filing and was fully engaged in the meeting.
Later, we talked about it and they said they don’t care if I have ADHD, everyone is a snow flake these days and it’s not an excuse for my behaviour. They said it was basically the same as being an asshole and using it as an excuse for poor behaviour. I reminded them that our local laws accept ADHD as a disability, but being an asshole is not. They reiterated that the optics were not great and I pointed out that this was a bias they might want to work on. They went back to the asshole analogy.
So, I guess the solution is to bring a fidget or don’t pay attention? I’m feeling pretty bummed at the out right discrimination. I was on fire today and way more productive than usual. Now I just feel like I need a nap 😴
Edit to add: a lot of comments seem to focus on the idea that I didn’t prove I was focused on the meeting. I was fully engaged in the meeting. I discussed, debated, and described actions taken as well or better than anyone else at the table. When I discussed the situation with my colleague after, they agreed that I was fully involved in the meeting. Their only issue was optics. They felt based on social conditioning and biases that what I had done demonstrated I wasn’t paying attention. I was. The meeting was directly related to my work scope and I was the SME at the table. I did not need my entire brain to be there.