u/Rainbow_Squee

My parents gave me a huge lecture because I got angry with my dad criticising my CV. Within the lecture they told me that no one cares about my feelings in ‘the real world’. I cannot always be accommodated for my emotions and so much other insensitive crap about how I can control my reactions to things and how I can’t just do whatever I pleased that I honestly had to tune out because I have enough self loathing.

They are fully aware that I have low self esteem, that last month I got fired and dumped from a 3 year relationship in the same week and that I’m really struggling with not having a career.

Still they insist that I should be less emotional and I always burden everyone with my emotions (never in that exact phrase but it is how it reads).

Today I messed up by raising as we were all saying goodnight that I find it really hard to push down my emotions and that their lecture only worsened things. They of course weren’t receptive and I don’t know honestly where my filter goes late at night.

Does anyone have advice for how to just stop expressing emotions verbally. Especially late at night.

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Have been feeling really insecure and I keep texting my bf to explain why I’m all cold and low energy because I can’t seem to speak without crying or getting so upset that I shut down. So I send all of these texts and then I think Shit I’ve way over shared. I don’t know what triggered this insecurity, I’ve just submitted my dissertation for university/college. One of my bf’s friends is dating an ex-bully of mine. I went to a car show with my bf and his friends and I was the only one who didn’t understand wth was happening and I worry it’ll make him tire of me. But I text this and then get embarrassed and delete texts or worse write MORE to try and stop it sounding like a break up message. I just feel like I can’t communicate at all atm? I feel like I’m just being the worst gf, being crazy. Shutting down irl and then sending 5 texts explaining why.