u/Dramatic-Koala3949

i’m insatiable and find a loophole in everything.
i want compliments but ill never believe them.
i don’t overtly seek attention but when i receive it it makes me so euphoric only just to feel nothing minutes later. my mind always wants to resort to the worst things and i constantly feel like im under moral surveillance. it sucks. it sucks for it to be that when the good finally does stay, you will find reasons to grow sick of it and resent it.

anyone feel atypical from bpd symptoms in the sense where they direct most of their splitting inward? i don’t get angry at people really often, but i get so upset with myself over the tiniest things. i also don’t think i have a victim complex at all, in fact, i much so rather see myself as the opposite.

i also can’t bring myself to have outwardly attention seeking behaviours. i find it interesting because if i do, i will deem any response to it as inauthentic. im unsure if this is moreso a quality of quiet bpd as i see people with bpd have the blatant opposite.