First i want to say i don’t think im an actual hoarder, yet my home looks like it. BUT for YEARS ive been throwing away and selling things. And too often, when ive sold stuff, i realise i actually needed it. And then i have to re-by it. Therefore i dont think im a classic hoarder, but my home looks like one of those homes you see on TV shows. Those homes people say ”oh my fucking god” about.
I can grab anything from the floor and tell you what it’s for, or when I’ll need it. Hoarder people do too, I know that.
Anyway. Even if I’m sorting and throwing and selling, I can’t keep up.
I start project get my shit together now and then and I’m always failing. This time I HAVE to get the home tidy, at least for a few months. But I don’t know where to start or what the next move after ”gather all garbage in bags” and ”make a pile/fill a box with stuff to sell”. Those steps are easy and I’ve done them many times.
BUT THEN WHAT. There are things ALL OVER. It looks like a pigsty. Even without garbage. Too ashamed to show you. I can show in private message if needed, but too embarrassed to show public even if anonymous.
I’ve used all planning and structuring apps there is, used artificial planning, everything, to get a grip of getting my home in shape. But they don’t work for me. I’m abnormal.
When I need to get space clean I gather everything in a large paper box and put it away. But I needed things I those boxes, and now I’m up in like 20 large paper boxes and I miss all the stuff because I desperately needed them. BECAUSE I USE nearly everything my home is filled with.
I live on a farm and have 3,000 square feet in my home, and another 16,000 square feet storage in other buildings.
I used to live on 1,000 square feet and I still have the same problem I had then. It’s sickening. Please help me.
(I’m a bit bipolar, I’m autistic [masking for 30 yrs until I got the diagnosis, I’m now 37] I have ADD, I suffer from chronic depression but I’m used to it after 30 years [yes] suffering of sadness/emotionally exhaustion/grief/depression)
(And oh, yeah, I don’t have money to hire a company to help me… otherwise I would have them to come over and sort and organise my home)
(Another edit: I’m socially anxious and having help from the health service in my home, without cost, financed by our government IS a way to do it BUT IS OUT OF THE QUESTION. I’ve gotten the question before but I get panic attacks in front of the doctors mentioning it. It’s that severe. Paying someone would be different. Having people without education or cleaning as a professional work, here in my home… I can’t……. It’s too personal. Private)