u/DramaticConfusion161

Hello people, I’m a 17 year old kid who’s stuck in a low vibrational state. I wanna spread love and pursue my dreams and goals so bad but I think I’m being held back and I’m not realizing it. Last night I decided to go on a drug binge and take a bunch of adderall and drink alcohol for no apparent reason. I haven’t noticed that I’ve been depressed but my life isn’t the best right now. Ive been doing drugs since I was 13 and I just found out my brothers depressed. I also do not have any friends currently so it just kinda feels like I can’t speak my mind. I think I’ve been depressed for a little while and not realizing it and I finally took all that pent up energy and went on a binge. I just need some guidance right now, I want to be able to help others around me and help my brother but I need to be able to help myself first. I’ve also been reading a book about manifesting and I wanna start using that to my advantage. I know this is a lot about personal stuff and not spiritually inclined but this is where I feel most comfortable talking because I do not feel a sense of judgement. Any help is appreciated 🙌

Hello people, I had a question on coping with your past decisions in life. I had a very rough childhood, I started doing drugs at 13 and was depressed and suicidal for most of being a teenager. I lived in so much anger and negativity. I’ve changed so much as a person, I got off drugs, I love spreading joy and positivity and being an inspiration to the people around me and I changed my outlook on everything in my life. I forgave the people I hated most in my life and started “living” my life. I also found spirituality and I will die by the hill that hell is a human concept and the other side is nothing but light. My biggest thing is the horrible, horrible things I’ve done in the past I have never told a single soul about. It haunts me everyday and it comes up randomly. I mean if I were to say them to a normal person I would probably be told to go rot in hell the rest of my life, I’m just trying to pick up the pieces of my past and heal what I broke. I started therapy back up again but I’m scared to even say these things to my therapist, Im scared to be judged, I’m scared to be seen as a horrible human being. These are the darkest parts of me I can never seem to get away from me and now they haunt me everyday that I live. Could I get some guidance or help?