I’ve never experienced sexual attraction in my life and i still hope something changes
Mostly just sharing my experience because i get progressively frustrated.
I am familiar with asexuality for quite some time already, given that i’m already a part of lgbtq+ community (bi and demigirl) i’ve just been afraid to name myself that as openly and confidently as i do with my bi identity. Sex is more appealing as an idea, i’d call myself fairly sex positive but it’s just not for me. I constantly fear that it’s gonna affect my relationship that i’m gonna be abandoned for not delivering “the most essential thing in love life”. Or not wanting to deliver it which is as bad. .-. I’m in relationship with an amazing person now and so far the closest i came to an admission that i am asexual is “i have a really low libido”. I came to the point that i regret not seeking a relationship within an asexual/ace-positive dating pool. Which… i imagine to be more like a puddle but still. There is that river in Egypt, you know.