u/Dramatic_Banana9218

i struggle with mdd, chronic / severe / recurrent subtype. it’s a bitch, but my meds help quite a lot.

recently prescribed mirtazapine for sleep (i’m a hypersomniac, but falling asleep is difficult as my other meds wear off in the evenings), appetite (i’m underweight), and a general antidepressant boost.

this med absolutely rocks with knocking you out. i’m used to getting very anxious and sleep-disturbed in the evenings, and feeling genuine sleepiness before bedtime again is so comforting. it’s absolutely lovely. my appetite has slowly increased as well, even after just a few days on the dose.

HOWEVER,

holy shit the nightmares are bad. i already struggle with them, but mirtazapine injects steroids straight into my dreams. vivid as all hell.

the worst part for me is the morning ‘hangover’. i’ve developed some sort of sleep paralysis when i wake up; i can feel, but cannot move, my limbs, and i can mumble, but cannot speak. it’s crazy and an absolute bitch.

when my brain catches up and i’m actually able to get out of bed, im dizzy and shaky, and all around exhausted for the next couple of hours.

again, im underweight, so that doesn’t help, and i struggle already with fatigue issues, but man, this med has a kick to it.

good to see that it has very positive expiriences for the people who metabolize it well! great medication, but for people who are newly prescribed, be wary of its potential side effects when you start it.

curious to see if anyone else has struggled with these issues, by the way. easily the most bizzare side effects i’ve ever had with any medication.

i live in the states, relatively close to where the southern-most algonquin tribes used to reside.

it’s a known thing amongst native american folklore culture that the “wendigo,” as depicted in most modern media (gaunt, deer-like, bipedal man-eater), is inaccurate, and the actual wendigo resembles something closer to a humanoid.

i understand that the wechuge is another beast that has a slightly closer resemblance to the media’s “wendigo,” but not by much.

maybe this is a dumb question, but is there a mythological beast in folklore that *actually* resembles the media’s deer-like wendigo? i assume that the familiar deer-creature we see in popular culture could just be a popularized interpretation, but maybe there’s an actual deer-creature out there that bears a similar resemblance.

and i feel AWFUL about it. it is by far the genre of noise that upsets me the most, and i feel so guilty because its often coming from someone who’s just sick and uncomfortable.

but i can’t do it. consecutive sneezing makes me want to put my head through a window. someone talking with a stuffy nose makes my shoulders tense up in a way nothing else does.

i’ve gotten close to telling my mom to “stop” whenever she sneezes multiple times in a row. being around any of my friends who suffer from allergies
— and they avoid blowing their nose for long enough that their voice gets nasally — is unbearable.

i love people, i love my friends, i love helping care for my loved ones when they’re sick, and my own reactions to mundane/involuntary things make me feel so selfish sometimes.

i’ve always been a huge anatomy nerd, and with every fantasy species-based fandom i’ve ever been in, i love fixating on unique anatomical traits and the canon reasons behind them :)

aaandddd……

i’m also a huge dragonic culture and mythology nerd.
outside of western dragonic culture, it’s quite common for dragons to be depicted with feathers and wings (off the top of my head, namely but not limited to, chinese lung dragons, often with fur, and the aztec quetzalcoatl, depicted always with feathers).

with all those (mildly conflicting) interests combined, i’ve always been interested in imagining other non-canonical traits for some of the wof species. especially with fur and feathers!

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some of my indulgent head canons:

skywings with feathers, perhaps on the primary and secondary segments of their wings, as flighted birds’ feathers (compared to webbed bat wings) give them superior gliding abilities, specialized for open-air environments, and insanely fast flight and dive speeds. i could also imagine feathered tails for the same reason, and feathered ruffs for displays of extravagance and power (like many sexually dimorphic male birds have).

icewings with fur (or feathers), but in varying amounts across individuals. it’s incredibly rare for reptilian species to thrive in arctic environments, so i always kind of imagined icewings with traits similar to mythological kirins or yinglongs, mainly with furred collars, back ridges, heads, and feet. kind of like the dinosaur yutyrannys with its feathers :)
they’d still have spikes in my mind! just… also with fur.

silkwings with fur, purely for the sake of moth influences. i know they’re more butterfly based but…. i mean come on. it’d be so fitting. it could be so cool.

(note, ‘fur’ would just be specially modified scales, like moths have, but hey, it looks therefor it is).
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thus ends my dump, but i want to hear others’ thoughts on this!
i know sticking to canonical anatomical accuracy is a controversial topic, especially when developing ocs, but i’ve always been a pro-creative/artistic freedom person, and i’m curious to hear other people’s other anatomical wof trait ideas <3

i’ve seen plenty of cragglewood, the chess machine, and the nightlight throughout my time here (and of course all the hall-of-famers like to 106, 3199, so on and so forth), but if folks have any smaller/nicher article recs with more spooky imagery, do share!

i’m a huge horror art nerd, but even with 7+ years on the wiki, i’ll never be able to find everything, and i love me some uncanny shit :3

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articles mentioned, luv you marv)
cragglewood park: scp-2571
chess machine: scp-1875
nightlight: scp-122
old man: scp-106
chicken… things: scp-3199

hello!

perhaps a dumb question, but i’m quite the anxious person and im seeking some reassurance here.

i have a geekbar (pulseX) and i am traveling internationally via icelandair. im pretty well-traveled, and i have already checked both tsa and icelandair regulations, and it seems perfectly fine for me to keep it in my carry on, but this is a school trip, and i don’t want to cause any trouble.

if there is any precaution i can take to ensure i don’t make these tsa agent’s job harder than it already is (lol), let me know :) happy to keep it in a sealed bag within my carry on like my makeup pouch or a ziploc if that will help. or just not take it whatsoever if it’s really that dangerous.

it should be noted that i am 18 (i know… sorry) and i am absolutely not going to be smoking on the plane. not that kind of jerk.

thank ya’ll ♥️

perhaps a question asked already, idk didn’t bother to check….. but!

i’ve been in this fandom since i was 10 and STILL haven’t finished all the logs, so what are yalls favorite scp-914 tests?

not series, im talking individual tests. we’re getting specific with this one 🙂‍↕️
example: i like 914-0141, from 014x in Part I. makes for a nice commentary on the appropriation of cultural symbols. thought it was neat.

link to the 914 experiment hub attached ^^

not my article, but a dude on a discord server i’m in shared it with us yesterday, wrote it himself. i love computer-based scps, and its pretty simple, but i think it’s solid :3

show him some love/feedback! or don’t. but give it a read ^^

prepping as we speak, womp womp.

i’m an 18y/o female, i have my first colonoscopy (+ endo) tommorow at 10am. i can’t remember the last time i felt “good” about my bowel movements; constant, CONSTANT constipation, i’m talking a week or longer frequently. blood in stool and on toilet paper. appetite GONE, im supposed to weigh 120, i weigh a good 108 now. ive been living in fear of my intestines and stomach. at this point, the only thing that works reliably is senna or magnesium liquid laxatives :(

and what sucks the most is that its all probably just one big fucked-up byproduct of some crappy mental health. i do love living, and i have such a fortunate life with a wonderful family and a stable home, but i have severe clinical depression i’ve struggled with for just under a decade, and this past year has just been abysmally bad.

ive known for awhile that my physical health has been tanking recently (i even had lyme disease there for a bit through sheer force of unluckiness, that REALLY sucked), but as i’m drinking this whole gallon of liquid chalk, its really beginning to hit me just how bad its gotten.

i’m a good student, and ive had to miss so much of my senior year. i was supposed to go to a university i loved, but had to rescind all my applications before a month-long inpatient psych admission. i love my family’s food, but can’t eat it without worry. i have electroconvulsive therapy triweekly (coming up on treatment #25), and can’t go to school on those days. i’ve missed so much.

so i hope tonight will treat me well 🤞
and i hope they find something fixable.
i have plenty of hope that it’ll get better, it just sucks so bad right now.

and my tummy hurts.

wish me luck :)