Dana... i miss you a little extra today.
I’ve been missing you so much lately. It’s more than usual. It’s constant and heavy. I keep dreaming about you almost every night and you know I barely ever dream. I think my heart is really aching for you. I miss your touch, your smile, your kiss, the sound of your voice, and the way you laugh. Most of all, I miss how safe and happy you made me feel every single day.
I miss feeling important to you. I miss you.
They say you can’t die from a broken heart but lately it feels like I’m already dead inside. Since you’ve been gone, nothing feels the same. Colors look dull. Food tastes bland. Every day feels empty and pointless. I’ve emotionally shut down. I don’t care about much anymore.
I cried too much, cared too much, and tried too hard. Now I just feel numb. I’m tired of hoping that things will get better because they never do. I’m exhausted.
Maybe I need to accept that you might never love me again. It hurts to even think that but I still want to say thank you for loving me once. That time with you was the happiest I’ve ever been in my life.
I really miss you. I miss who I was when I was with you.