They all won
The cheating partner won. The friends that betrayed me won. The business partner that swindled me $15k won. The parents that never understood won. The siblings that never listened won. School won. Pain won. Sadness won. Depression won. Misery won. Suffering won. And who lost? The guy that loved unconditionally. The loyal friend. The good business partner. The obedient son. The good brother. The bright student. The guy that tried to be the good that he wanted to see in the world. At least he tried according to his perspective. It felt like I nearly had everything. Now all I have left are what ifs. What ifs Fading into memories to eventually be lost in time. Whoever is out there? God? The universe? What did I do? Where did I go wrong? Is this life really worth the struggle that comes with it? Two months ago, I lost someone that I love, and I've just about had it. I wish I knew what happiness felt like before my end. If we all die anyway, regardless of what we've gained, then why not just skip to the end. Avoid the suffering and just get it over with. Anything that takes the pain away. Please take this pain away. Please