Fear of my throat or wrists getting cut
Thank you for reading and helping me if you are here.
I’ve had an intense fear of my wrists getting hurt for many years now. It comes and goes - like one month I don’t think much about it and another month i can’t stop. I don’t like them being exposed or touched by other people. It gives me anxiety and makes me squirm.
The throat thing is more recent but gives me the same sort of anxiety. I don’t know if it’s because of the story with the Ukrainian woman whose throat got cut on the bus or the fact that I had a bad experience on a bus 4 months ago where two guys had a feud and one of them yelled “I’ll fucking stab you!” Before he left the bus. I can’t sit on a bus now if I’m not sitting in the back where no one can come up from behind and cut my throat. I’ve also been told that I’m covering my throat a lot during conversations with new people.
Am I a nutcase? I feel like one. I feel unsafe in my own body. It gets worse when I’m stressed and am juggling a lot of projects at once. But what do I do? Do I HAVE to slow down to stop this? What do I do when these thoughts take over and how can I make them stop? I feel insane.