u/Dramatic_Vegetable48

So Im freshlyish out, I have been talking to someone for a bit now and recently she brought up my hair. Sometimes smooth , sometimes it is what it is. I’m a MOTHERRRR to 2 special needs children so sometime I just don’t have the energy or care.
Anyways the point is she brought up sugaring/waxing and even offered to do it herself but I’m scared ! Has your partner done this for you ? Am I overthinking this now? I’ve never in previous relationships had someone bring it up…

I know I posted saying I didn’t want to be on the apps because tbh I wanted to be private and keep as much as I can to myself due to my situation.

I live in a small college town and things spread quickly here. But are there any apps or advice yall recommend for putting myself out there for the first time.

I went to a couple lgbtq friendly spots but I just don’t know how to approach anyone and no one really looked twice at me. Everyone there seemed to already be coupled up anyway.
I am quite sure I looked as awkward as I felt.

29f. Been married 7 years to a man. We share children. We are In the process of separation. In our state we have to be separated a year before we can file.

Anyways I don’t know how to approach another woman. I have baggage now, I have a mom body , I am awkward. I am not ready for anything serious nor will I be for at least a year or more. I would however like to feel the scene out and be single and casual with someone. I have talked to women in my early 20’s mostly through apps or my previous relationship (we were in a polygamist relationship not my ex husband but before that)

But I don’t want the apps in my fresh chapter. Would you date someone like me , with all the baggage I have?
Any advice on approaching someone casually?
I don’t do clubs or party , I am mostly a homebody since I am the primary parent.

So I am 28 Latina married to a man, we have 3 kids. I have had one sexual encounter with a woman when I was like 19.. over the last year I have just been fighting myself over having thoughts of my best friend. She is a stud and she has really just stood out so much to lately ,like I have dreams about her, cuddling, being affectionate in general. She lives far away, like 4 hours away. She always deals with stuck up fems who don’t treat her right or deserve her genuine softness. I have never told her my feelings or made it obvious because tbh I don’t think she would even like me like that. She’s only ever dated blk women. She herself is blk.

I know I sound delulu but I had to vent somewhere. I don’t have plans to break up my family because I have a child with a disability and financially it’s not realistic right now.

But I’m finding myself leaning towards masc women more often than not. Especially those who remind me of her.

I can’t talk to my husband about this because he always makes a joke that if I were to find a woman I’m interested in he’d have to be welcome too. I’m just not interested in a poly situation, I have tried it.
I have never cheated on any relationship I’ve been in. So this is really conflicting to me and tbh I’m thinking of exploring that side.
And Yes he has cheated on me at least once in the beginning of our marriage that I am certain so I’m also thinking I should take my own lick back and to the grave at least.

Advice , anyone been through something like this?