okay so for context ive always identified as a singular person but online ive made many alternative accounts under different names and different pronouns, and i also like being someone im not in terms of gender, presentation, some other traits i cannot put into words
but when im on the alts i also talk differently even when im not trying to???
for example i usually really like cuss words and i usually type with overcomplicated words out of habit but sometimes i switch into talking with shortened words and inadvertently replacing cuss words with softer versions like hell to heck and shit to crap because ??????
sometimes im closed off to everyone and sometimes i overshare to everyone, sometimes im softer and sometimes im cruder, sometimes im more masculine and sometimes im more feminine (whatever it even fucking MEANS to be feminine or masculine, i don't know), and sometimes i just feel like im not typing or saying things like "i" would or should
i don't even know what being "myself" even means anymore, i can't pin down what kind of person i even am
i don't know if any of this makes sense to anyone but me so sorry if this reads as an inane ramble but yeah