u/DreadUlbricht

I've officially hit 150 days free of this nightmare. PAWS has been tough, harder than the acutes were for me. The first few days were fine, a little uncomfortable but not terrible, days 4-7 I started feeling really crappy but by 1 week I was fully rebounded and felt great. Some lingering issues, but nothing I couldn't live with. I still struggle a bit with libido as it comes and goes, and I have to take fiber supplements still to keep solid bowel movements that arent gross and messy, but the real issue is the depression and anxiety. I have many more good days than bad now, but around day 100 until about 130ish were the toughest for me..I even started self sabotaging my relationship. Thankfully she understands that I am still battling this addiction, and even though I have no cravings for it and am sure I am done for good, it is still tough. Good luck to anyone else starting this journey and those who are already well on the road to recovery. The end goal is worth it. You will not regret doing yourself this favor in the end. Kratom never resulted in a better you, just a better feeling. Strive for a better you and don't forget that in the end, life will be better when you escape it's grip.