Post psychosis anger
I’m mostly recovered from an episode some years ago but what remains is absolute rage when I revisit the episode and how people responded to me and wondered if anyone else can relate to this?
I’m living in a different place now, different job different friends etc. I had given a LOT to my previous community though, friends and work, and I feel really angry/resentful that during the most terrifying experience of my life, people continued to extract from me. Rather than care, I was met with annoyance that I wasn’t performing to the same level I once was - eg I wasn’t being the person that everyone brings their problems too, or the person who goes above and beyond at work (and yes I realise this was probably part of the issue in the first place).
I completely respect that people may have found it overwhelming and/or didn’t have the capacity to offer care, but to be met with anger/annoyance at my reduced functioning, and continued attempts to take from me, is beyond upsetting.
I’ve been unable to view people in the same light ever since and my desire to care and support others is completely diminished, which is sad because it used to give me meaning.
Can anyone else resonate with this?