Once again I'm finding myself crying in my parked car, today I've decided to write how I feel to hopefully find some kind of peace.
Me 30m am in the prime of my career/life thanks to my mother having sacrificed her whole life to providing a better life for me, while constantly reminding me that she always knew I'd be special.
Being similar in so many ways she was more than a mother but a bestfriend. We've always had a psychic connection and have always understood one another even when we fought.
This past Christmas we found out she has a level 4 brain tumor/cancer and has since struggled with all kinds of treatment. Leaving me to slowly watch this disease take her from me.
After speaking to her oncologist I've been informed we don't have long (and have been left to decide whether to tell my mother or not). Being a stubborn/brave woman she has yet to recognize/ accept her own decline. Currently my siblings and I are building up the courage to let her know this next treatment will likely be our last.
I cry every moment I have by myself and am struggling with not being able to share my feelings with her as I have my whole life (to avoid burdening her already tough battle).
For anyone else who has gone/ going through this, how have you coped with grieving the foreseeable loss?
Also I know she's not gone but I miss my mom so bad.