u/Dreamcatcher318

I've been so emotional lately and I'm not exactly sure why. His need for space has lasted longer than I even imagined. Part of me wants to tell him let's just divorce but of course the hope for reconciliation stops me from doing that. We had our share of ups and downs over the course of 19 years. The first 6 months of separation had me feeling like I was drowning and there are times, I still wake up in a panic. If it was not for my son, I truly don't know if I would here today. He left us before when our son was young but it feels even more painful this time. Loved ones tell me that therapy will help me, but it kind of fills me with dread. Probably because I know I'll hear all the things I don't want to hear but need to.