I'm their favorite person, how to stay strong after a breakup?
My ex-girlfriend with BPD broke up with me a week after we return from a trip together to another country, it was the most amazing trip in the world.
She came back 10 days later, and I told her I couldn't go back to all that chaos. Lately (3 months after), I've been thinking that she doesn't love me, that I'm just her favorite person. Is there a difference between the two?
She's tried to contact me many times, and she tells me she loves me, and I melt, but the truth is she hurt me a lot. She's on psychological theraphy but not on any psychiatric medication, and I suspect it's so she can use other drugs every two weeks.
She is not a bad person, she is kind, loving and tender, more like a child. But when she is in crisis is so hard for me, I have anxiety, depression, ADHD and complex trauma. I'm honestly not a good fit for her.
Even so, it's really hard for me; the guilt is eating me up, I miss her all the time. How can I stick to my decision to leave if I feel like I'm abandoning her?