u/DrewXGemini

I need help knowing if I’m coming off weird or not. I’ve been going to this dentist for 3 years now and I made it known I only want her touching my teeth. She seems really sweet and nice and I hope I’m not misreading it horribly but, I feel so weird shooting my shot with a girl at her work. The first time I had a feeling I liked her, 2nd time we talked way past my appointment, 3rd time felt just as easy. The reason I feel so conflicted is I’ve always struggles because I’m black. (She’s white)

I’ve had a few girls either get cold feet or straight up never show up to planned dates before and I’m sick of it. I’ve been overly fetishized by honestly a decent amount of girls and at this point I’m overly cautious. My friends wanted to set me up with a “nice girl” once but failed to mention I’m Black. Well, she immediately pulled out when she saw me and left me sitting alone. No words, apology, anything. If anything I think she got upset.

Well anyways, this Girl hasn’t made me feel like that at all. I’m in the middle of making some harsh life choices in the coming months between moving away and living with my Grandmother to save money or staying where I want to. Well if I’m in a relationship, this would influence my decision. I want to send her flowers and a note but, I don’t know if I’m playing the clown again. I don’t want to put her on the spot where she works as it’s all women there but, I gotta try right? Either way I think I’m gonna try something but, is this an acceptable thing to do? Do people still do this? I also want to get her name right. I wrote it down and put it somewhere I cannot find but, I may just call and ask. (Or have a friend call).

I’m okay with failing again. It means I tried. I just can’t bear feeling like a monster for trying again. Maybe moving away is the better choice. Any advice on what I can do better is appreciated. Even typing this helped me sort my feelings. Thanks all.