Feeling Disheartened About Role Reversal
I've been in the Role Reversal subreddit for a few years. To me, Role Reversal is very beautiful and something I really enjoy, and yet it also makes me quite sad.
I work hard on my appearance, take care of myself, regularly go out dressed in skirts and hairbows and dresses, and finding a role reversal relationship just seems flat out impossible. No girl I've personally met wants a girly or submissive guy. They want someone strong and manly (and honestly, how can I blame them?).
But despite trying so hard to take care of my appearance and to be social, I'm quite disheartened. I'm not the prettiest person ever and I have a lot of mental disorders that could make me quite burdensome I feel. Regular relationships would be hard to accomplish let alone Role Reversal ones.
But what hurts the most is seeing lots of people, sometimes even people younger than me, getting into multiple Role Reversal relationships. And they make it seem easy.
Role Reversal relationships are the only relationships I would want to have so if I can't have one, I don't want to be in any other kind of relationship. And at this point it just feels easier to brace myself and to accept that fact that I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life. I won't stop trying, I won't be able to stop myself from trying, but I think a part of me is growing more and more saddened with each year passing.