u/DropStoneDead

Good evening.

I made this account a few days ago specifically to make posts to seek advice / comfort, as well as to look at the experiences of other redditors.

I'm 26-ish male, and I've had ED for a few years now at this point, probably about 5. It's probably caused by many factors, including childhood SA, low testosterone, and a really bad experience with my current partner early on in our relationship.

I feel like I've tried everything, but every step I take to improve feels like it just invites more shame and humiliation.

I have begun thinking about SH to my genitals so I can have an excuse to not have functional parts, and I'm so scared and embarrassed all of the time when I try to talk about this with my therapist or my partner.

I don't know if I'm looking for advice or just for a sense of community, but I'd like to hear what others are going through or maybe how they break their patterns of dark thought.

Even if you don't post, please have a good evening, and I hope your own journey is peaceful and safe.