Accept my loneliness
Be me: 25M, working and earning good money, have a car.
6 years ago I broke up with my first love because I had ED when trying to have intimacy with her. Because all our attempts were a total failure from my side, I decided to break up to not waste her time with such a loser. After that I had a depression, started taking antidepressants and dived into my work completely. Since the, I was working 2-3 jobs at the same time just to escape my loneliness and understand of what a loser I am.
For the last 2 years, I was trying to find a new relationships, but every girl just rejected me. They say that I’m a good friend but nothing more. Nobody sees me as a men.
That’s very painful, and I have question: how to accept that I’m undesirable? That I’m..not a men?