Doesn’t love me
I 30f and mm 45m have been seeing each other since April but have been friends and working together for over a year. We are incredibly close and interacting feels effortless. Two months or so ago he told me he was starting to feel “love type feelings” for me to which I told him I think I do love him. He said he was not ready to say it back. A week ago I asked him if he loved me to which he said he can’t say he doesn’t but is too scared to say he does. I left it alone. I asked again for clarity yesterday by what he meant. He said he wanted to think about how he wanted to answer it and later that night he told me he still loves his wife and he can’t say it to another person despite how he feels about me. I feel crushed. I feel like I can pour as much love as I want to into this and now I know I will never receive it back. I know I should just end it but I can’t get myself to. I love what we have. The imbalance was already apparent, we get very little physical time together and now I know he will never love me. Anyway thanks for reading just had to vent