Fantasy vs reality
Ik this might sound absolutely ridiculous but one of the reasons I thought I was trans (FTM) was because of anime boys. They can be so so sooo pretty but are still considered men? And honestly, if I could be a pretty anime boy I still would want to be??? But like, in my games only… or maybe in another world where men are actually that gorgeous. It just feels like a fun dream to have and I wish I realized that’s all it needed to be sooner, instead of believing it was another sign bc other girls couldn’t really relate. Cuz ig wanting to be a boy at all, even if only in ur fantasies or hypotheticals, isn’t normal?
Idk if this makes me lesbian or just really into pretty boys, but if anyone gets it and has figured themselves out plz lmk. This wasn’t my onlyyy reason for believing I was trans but I definitely think it influenced me a lot. I think younger me was just sheltered and didn’t understand that living as a man is very, very different from pretending I am one in a game. I only learned once I tried it. And also, like I said before, that other women didn’t have to relate for me to still be okay with my assigned birth gender :’)
Btw I’m an adult, lol. I feel like this post screams kid who just learned to differentiate media vs reality. I genuinely don’t know why I’m like this?? 😭😭