What if I get back on my meds, and just keep it to myself??
Hello, long story short, I was on Zoloft for about 8 years, with a break during pregnancy and breastfeeding. After so long, it stole my sex drive and started impacting my marriage negatively. I then made a decision to take myself off of my meds. I figured that I have learned a lot about coping skills in therapy and am able to live life with only having to take my adhd meds as needed.
Here we are about 6 months later and I am spiraling. I cry about everything and linger for too long after minor disagreements. We have a large family, so I have to deal with many personalities, along with managing my marriage. We are also helping to raise my nephew who has severe behavioral problems, which also causes a strain in my marriage AS WELL AS in the household as a whole. We are a family of 8.
I am overwhelmed and headed to the "dark place". People who struggle with depression know what I am talking about without having to break it down. I want to get back on my Zoloft, but my husband is against it. I dont wanna fight about it, so I'm thinking of just doing it and keeping it under wraps for my sanity.
Will I be out of line for this? I know it's not great but, I have to look out for my sanity:(