I can’t get over my ex girlfriend.
Hi. These are all fake names and fake ages, none of the names or ages are accurate to real life, but everything else is accurate in my real life experience.
You can just call me Nori! I, M/22, have an ex girlfriend, Sami F/21. We’ve been through a lot, but I just can’t seem to get over her. I’ve recently learned that she’s currently seeing/talking to someone else, whom I suspected she was interested in months prior to this. You can call me pathetic, because honestly I know I am. Sami is someone who knows the real me, someone who has never judged or cared about any weird thing I was interested in. Sami’s my best friend, if I could just be friends with her I would 100% just be friends with her. But every time we’ve tried I always seem to be unable to push my feelings down.
But the love I have for her doesn’t make any sense to me anymore. I’ve never once felt this way before, I know I’ve done many things to stop myself from feeling this way but everything always comes back. I always go back. I’m the one that always texts after we have no contact for a while, I’m the one that always reaches out, I’m the one that always texts first even now.
This is probably why she’s distanced herself from me, and also because of her new love interest. I just wish I was the person she wanted, I wish I was the one she loved. She broke so many promises, but so did I, and all I want is for her to tell me it’s going to be okay and that she wants me.
But I need to stop this. I have to stop this. I need to stop feeling this way for my mental health. I know this is an obsession, I know I have to get over her.
Which brings us to the present. I downloaded a dating app and have recently connected with someone, I decided to give this person my phone number rather than my social media to go old school. They’re dry, but funny, and they like the same things that I do. I can’t help but feel like I’m betraying her by even thinking about getting with someone else. How do I stop this feeling? Do I seriously just have to ride things out?