Unsure what to do and need some advice!
A couple weeks ago I took a home pregnancy test and found out I was pregnant, I had been feeling like I was but had also just convinced myself I was sick at the same time. I have 2 kiddos under the age of 3 and life just gets busy… so between me and my partner we totally just spaced getting a test sooner. I had suspected I was probably further along than 8 weeks but I didn’t think it was longer than 13. Last Thursday I went in for an ultrasound. She told me she was gunna do an internal one, she started the ultrasound and her eyes got very wide and she looked at me and said “how far along did you think you were…!?” And I had told her I figured probably further than 8 weeks. She immediately shook her head and changed to doing the ultrasound on my belly. At this point I was extremely worried and looked at my partner who also seemed pretty concerned. I asked if she could tell me what she was getting and she said 16 WEEKS… when she was done with the scan completely and she I was measuring 16 weeks 5 days… so that now puts me at 17 weeks 2 days… my partner and I have from the beginning decided we really are not ready for another baby yet, as that would put us with 3 under 3… my only issue is I don’t know if I can live with myself if I abort a baby at this far along… I feel like with finding out at almost 17 weeks this gives me no time to even make a choice. I just feel so conflicted because I want to spend this time with my 2 babies I have right now and when we feel ready have another. I am so scared for the operation as well. I just am at a mix of emotions and feel like I have literally no time to make a decision.