advice on friendships as a empath
Being an empath has ruined my life. I grew up always making sure to consider everyone's feelings and always making sure that everyone feels included. But lately I have been in a dilemma in my friendships. Me being so forgiving and apologetic has not only ruined me as a person but also my mental health. I am in a trio with 2 other girls I have known from high school, but they have always been closer despite me introducing the friendship. I never confronted it to bring peace in the group, but I have noticed it since the 5 years we have been in the friendship. I always dismissed my feelings about them discussing their plans together, thinking, "Well, maybe they have a valid reason," maybe its the fact that they have more in common because they both have S/O, maybe its because they live closer to eachother that they always hangout at eachothers houses, maybe its because etc etc, im always the person to say " wait when did this happen", because im again never included I just feel like if they enjoy eachother so much why am i still in this group, i would feel much better to them admitting they dont enjoy my company then have to suffer third wheeling this friendship. I feel like my head is spinning coming up with excuses, trying to make this work, but in the end, I'm burnt out from constantly considering everyone else when no one considers me. My empathy has led me to get taken advantage of time and time again, but despite it, I show up. Sometimes it is a blessing to be an empath, but also a curse. . I just want to know: am I tweaking?has this happened to anyone else experienced this, and please give me advice.